slow down my weekends... pls... haha~

Weekends seems to pass so fast, now it's already Sunday and tomorrow have to get back to work again! Sigh~ School has already started, which means that my Wednesdays and Fridays are already occupied! =S Ya, appointment with my lecturers! Haha~

C.P. had left for China this morning and will be back about 1 month later I guess. Before he left, he wanna meet Fion and I for the "last" time. Haha~ Funny man. Sounds as if he's not coming back. But anyway, we've met on Thursday. Thought of watching a movie, but no attractive movie to watch, and also no good time slot for those that we wanna watch. In the end, we ate and chat at Ichiban Sushi.

Yesterday watched New Moon online, quite nice. There'll be a new one coming up, third part of Twilight, called something like Eclipse or what. Waiting for that. =D

a new year means new happiness and sadness

Have to work again on Monday, and school will be starting on Wednesday. Suddenly feel so tired. Work, study, work, study.. Study so hard for what? Having so much money for what? I earned my money and yet someone kept borrow money from me again and again. Rejected but no use. Keep sms me, and I'm really sick of it!

Spending more than what you can earn? Sorry! It's your own doing! I'm telling you now that, once you've gotten your salary, no more money lending from me to you. NO MORE! I'll shut down my phone and I mean it!

What a start of a new year! Buddy, you are right! A new year means new happiness and sadness. Am experiencing it right now. Sometimes I feel that, my unhappiness seems to be covering my happiness. The only time when I feel relaxed, carefree, happy is when I'm singing or listening to music alone. It's a kind of enjoyment.

Sometimes I hope that I can be like you, buddy. Staying overseas. Experience something which you can't when you are living here with your parents. Maybe when away will you know how to appreciate your family and friends, know who are the one who really care about you and be by your side whenever you are in need.

However, on the other side, maybe it's a way to stay away from some troubles, unhappiness that you are facing in here, and people whom you might not want to see now, will also can't find you there. Pros and cons, I should say. Maybe it's just a feeling right now, I don't know.

end of 2009, start of 2010

2009 is now history and a new chapter will now begin. Looking back, time really flies so fast that it's beyond my imagination. Didn't realise that I've already worked for 1.5yrs, nearing 2 years in May. I still thought that I've just left my polytechnic life not long only, but it's actually long.

Happiness, unhappiness, sadness, anger and etc, all these feelings should be gone by now. It should end together with the year 2009. We should now start with a fresh new sheet of paper and start filling up our 2010 with more emotions, fun, experiences, stories and so on.

In life, there'll surely be ups and downs. What's important is not that we've fell, it's that we learnt how to stand up and continue to walk on with life. Falling down is not scary at all, instead it makes us learn from our mistakes and improve from there. As people always said, failure is the mother of success. Without failure, where will you get success? Will you really understand the meaning of success and also to treasure it?

Study hard is not enough, working hard also not enough. We must learn how to study smart and smart! Been slacking in my studies in 2009, so I must really work HARD and SMART this year. Cannot afford to last minute study again! Haha~ Every year I'll say the same thing, so.. Hmm.. Just 'listen" will do.. Haha~

Yesterday at work, one of my colleague, K aka my "ma ma", set a new year resolution for me. =S sigh.. Haha~ That is.. To slim down! And not see a "chubby" Eng Eng in 2011! Haha~ Tough!! Oops! BUT! Is true though. After my exam leave, I've gained back my weight again. Gosh! Scary! Must really cut down junk food and exercise more.

In 2009, someone had left this place to heaven and this person is none other than Michael Jackson. Though I'm not a fan of him, but I realised that a lot of his songs I've heard before! Oops! Previously I heard some songs but didn't know that the songs are sang by him, until his death then I knew. The King of Pop, always a King of Pop! Lives in the heart of many people, thus he's not dead actually! Nobody can replace him. His dance. His songs. Bravo! *clap clap clap* Recently just watched This Is It and he's so cool! He's a humble man despite being so famous. I think a lot of people should really learn from him; his attitude in fact. Humble! Understand? Don't be too arrogant! Go Michael!!

In a brand new year, I just hope that I can really set my mind in studying, pass all my papers as soon as possible, get my CPA as soon as possible. Once completed study, I'll focus on my work. Hmm.. Haha~ Boyfriend? Leave it to fate. Maybe in 2011 when I managed to slim down, maybe I'll doll up, maybe I might get a boyfriend by then? Haha~ Since is next year, so we'll talk about it next year. Haha~

Wishing my family and friends and also all the people around the world good health, more money, excel in study, excel in work and may all have a prosperous 2010! Happy New Year!!!

yes! exam's over!

Oh yes! Exam's finally over! Now enjoying my life without books, feeling so great! Haha~ So, having been a lot of days not updating my blog, I'll now upload some photos taken recently, and also some videos of my nephew's childcare centre graduating ceremony performance by the students there. So cute lor, these kids.. Adorable! Feel like going forward to hug them.. Haha~ Oh ya, please don't mind the conversation from the background of the video. Hehe~ A lot of people talking, so just recorded the conversation while videoing these kids dancing =D

Photos:

hehe.. let's take photo together bah..

Ultraman! (purposely ask him take photo coz his mouth, so dirty! haha~ oops!)

"har!" strongggg~

Ultraman again! har!

Power ranger! har! har!

box Gu-Gu, monster! i'm a power ranger!!

i'm a monster now! Gu-Gu "peng" me..

"ti ti ti" power ranger!

har!

Photos taken by Divan:

Videos of kids performing at the childcare centre graduation ceremony:

don't feel like studying!!

No doubt that studying can be fun, but not when you need to work and study at the same time. Tiring and it's like, don't have sufficient time to study for people like me who are not the hardworking type. I prefer to study last minute as I can remember better. Seems like, this seating, I applied my leave a bit too late. Now, I can feel the stress, and don't have the feel to sit for my exam in this sitting. Really, stressed!

When stressed, I can't study! I study best when I'm not feeling stressful and that's when I can absorb and grasp what I'm studying best. Stress?! Nothing! Don't feel like starting at all, how to start my revision?!

Tomorrow is that start of my first paper, and yet, I've not start revising. ARGH!!!

my nephew, my dogs and me..

Hmm... Hmm!

Do I look fierce enough??

hehe~ smile..

Nice smile ah..

There's a scratch mark on his hand actually, but seems like can't really see ah.. Never mind.. Look at the next photo then ..

Carry the dog lah! See! The dog scratched your face liao lor.. Handsome not?

Hi!

Hello!

Stop taking photo.. Haha~

Can I don't entertain you?

The dog named Xiao Hei (Lil Blackie).

The one looking at the camera is called Milk Milk.

Don't know what he singing lah.. What what Jia Wei Niu Nai?? Haha~

Waiting for him to sing second time...

Finally it's the second time, but! Still catch no ball leh.. Aiyo~

The 2 doggies are fighting/playing.. Alamak! Night time lor! Still playing..

my feelings..

Have you ever wonder what you really want to be or do in the future? Is what you are doing now towards your goal(s)? Or is it just doing it as that's what you think you will be doing in future; maybe due to the course of your study? Or is it really your dream?

Goal(s)? Ambition? Dream(s)? What are they? I always said that I wanna be a Financial Controller (FC) but I keep questioning myself is that what I really want in life? Maybe what u claimed to be your dream/goal is not what you really want inside of you. The inner you should know better or understand better what you wish to do. However, bear in mind that what you really hope to do may not be realistic and you yourself know very well that it's impossible too. Thus, maybe it's better to have a realistic goal being set; your secondary goal in life.

Emo period is round the corner again. A lot questions start popping out in my mind with no answers also. Well, I don't plan to hear any answers either. There are many things in the world that happened or happen(s) or will happen without a clear explanation. Nobody can explain for it as there's actually no answer(s) to the questions. Just live with it and maybe, one day, you might understand why such things happened, but understanding and providing the exact reason(s) are two different things (to me).

Sometimes I really feel unhappy. Why am I here? What am I doing here? Is that what I want in life? Can I don't think so much? Can I don't worry so much? Can I don't care so much, just close one eye and open one eye, or better still, close both eyes? See the children, the kids.. So naive, innocent, carefree.. What are you adults doing, thinking? I don't understand. I don't need to understand as I really don't understand. Leave me alone.. I'm happy now.. Let me enjoy my childhood and worry about things later.

I start to like the feeling of being alone. I don't daze when alone, instead it makes me think a lot. Travelling on a bus, looking at scenery, people buildings etc. sets you thinking and wondering about many things.

I enjoy watching rainfall, listening to the falling rain drops.. So nice, relaxing.. All my unhappiness seems to be washed away together with the rain. I like to look at the sky. So broad and so high. The clouds are so beautiful, all in different sizes and shapes, making the sky even more beautiful.

I enjoy looking at the sea. Hearing the water splashing sound, enjoying the wind. Sitting alone down there sounds rather good isn't it? Though maybe you'll see a lonely back view of mine but that's when you'll really feel your existence. Face your true feelings, don't you think so? That's what I think will happen to me if I really were to be alone there.

The sky, the sea and the wind...