Miss you, Love you~

So many things had happened for the past 2 weeks, and yes, the worst was on Saturday, 27th September 2008.

Things will start to change from now on. Initially I was so happy about the birth of my second nephew, and now I'm feeling so pain having to leave him. My nephew is fine, nothing went wrong, just that something happened in the family and now, left with no choice, but to part with him.

I'm just an Aunt and yet I'm feeling so pain having to do so, I can't imagine how hurt my brother is feeling.

(Sorry, some family matters, do not wish to disclose here.)

Nonetheless, I still hope that I'll get to see him some other time. Maybe not now, maybe not so soon. Hope can see him and play with them the next time round, though might not be often. To me, can see him better than never see him at all. At least I'll know that he's living well, and is a healthy boy.

I just want to let my younger nephew (named Vavan) that I, his Aunt, love him a lot. Hope he'll grow up as a good, healthy, obedient and clever boy, just like his elder brother Divan.

Gu Gu (Aunt) really miss you~

Birth of My Younger Nephew!

21st September 2008 is the day when my younger nephew arrived in this world, a place where he calls a Home. At 8.01am, my sis-in-law gave birth to my younger nephew.

When I received this piece of good news, I was overwhelmed with joy. Haha~ Can't wait to see how he looks like. Well, over the phone, my bro told my mum that this little boy looks alike with his brother (my elder nephew).

When I heard that, I immediately know that he'll be very cute looking. Haha~ Of course, since I dote on my nephews a lot, they are sure cute in my eyes.

Anyway, will upload the picture of my younger nephew the next time round. =)

What a wonderful day~ Haha~

Final Decision!

Alright! I've already decided what to do! This time round I'm really firm about my decision as I've already told a few about it. I'll not back out! I hope I won't.

No pain, no gain! That's what V said. Just go ahead and try or else you'll never know. Go! Go! Go! Jia you~ No matter what happens, I know these few will be there for me, to cheer me up. Haha~

Before I can really take action, I must confirm a few things first. What I wanted to say is, I don't know how long will I take to accomplish my "mission". Nevertheless, if the "result" is out, I'll let you all know what the heck am I doing.

As for now, those who know just keep to yourself. Those who don't know, just remain as it is? Haha~ You can go and guess but I won't release it until I got my "result slip". Haha~

Although had made this decision quite long time ago, but was holding back for multiple reasons. Until yesterday when I finally made up my mind to just give it a try. No use waiting or guessing or whatever. Just do something about it to get an answer.

Sigh. Still got a fear. Not fear of getting a "poor result", but fear of what "consequences" I'll face if I really "fail". Yet, I still decided to go for it. No pain, no gain! Go for what you (really) want and don't live with regrets!

Haha~ Hope I can take it when the "result" is out. I will!

at the very least, I've tried =)

Tell yourself, "At least I've tried".

That's what I've told myself after I've tried to solve my problem. Though result is not considered as what you want, but at least you still give it a try even though knowing that this will be the outcome anyway.

No regrets will there be after trying, don't you agree? At least the problem is now, more or less, considered solved. Just work harder a bit on it and it will be solved in no time. Looking forward to that day.

Anyway, enough on this (the above issue) as I know that nobody will be interested anyway. Haha~

So, how has life been going on for you guys? Well, unknowingly, I've actually worked in this company for 4 months plus, going 5th month soon in about 1 week's time. I mean, that will include my temp's period there. I started working as temp staff in the middle of April 08, and converted to a permanent staff around mid May 08 too. To be more precise, about 5 weeks of temp, I was being converted (counting from effective date).

Wow~ Really darn fast. I wonder how long I'll be able to stay in this company. Maybe i don't have confidence in myself for doing a good job there. who knows I might be fired? Haha~ Hope won't have that day anyway. Bad for my resume. Haha~

Now, I'm starting to worry about my study. I'm scared that I'll fail in my exam. Yesterday, on of my colleague asked me if I've got confidence in passing my two papers. Guess what's my answer? Haha~

Ya! I got confidence that I'll fail the papers.

That's true! I'm not kidding. Though majority of the contend for these 2 papers are from poly's work, but these 2 papers are also the not so good papers during my poly time. Definitely I'll scare that I'll not be able to make it.

That's why I've begin to look through my poly's lecture notes for Business Law. Well, to refresh memory I mean, as the ACCA notes are too briefed. it has to be read together with the textbook in order to get a clearer picture of what's going on. Hardworking, isn't I? Haha~ First time ever doing this, so you can sense how worried I am for the coming exams, don't you? Haha~

Where?!

Time machine! Where are you? Bring me back to the past and let things restart from there. I don't want to face this problem anymore. Bring me back where I've got no worries in life.

Brain-washing machine! Come out, you! Wash away all my troubles and unhappiness to make me a happy man again.

Courage! Don't hide anymore! You can't hide forever. Where are you? I really need you now. Show yourself now!

Heart! Is that really what you feel? Should I go with my heart or my brain?

Brain! Why can't you unite with heart to help me make a final decision. It's so tiring to think and think and think.