yes! exam's over!

Oh yes! Exam's finally over! Now enjoying my life without books, feeling so great! Haha~ So, having been a lot of days not updating my blog, I'll now upload some photos taken recently, and also some videos of my nephew's childcare centre graduating ceremony performance by the students there. So cute lor, these kids.. Adorable! Feel like going forward to hug them.. Haha~ Oh ya, please don't mind the conversation from the background of the video. Hehe~ A lot of people talking, so just recorded the conversation while videoing these kids dancing =D

Photos:

hehe.. let's take photo together bah..

Ultraman! (purposely ask him take photo coz his mouth, so dirty! haha~ oops!)

"har!" strongggg~

Ultraman again! har!

Power ranger! har! har!

box Gu-Gu, monster! i'm a power ranger!!

i'm a monster now! Gu-Gu "peng" me..

"ti ti ti" power ranger!

har!

Photos taken by Divan:

Videos of kids performing at the childcare centre graduation ceremony:

don't feel like studying!!

No doubt that studying can be fun, but not when you need to work and study at the same time. Tiring and it's like, don't have sufficient time to study for people like me who are not the hardworking type. I prefer to study last minute as I can remember better. Seems like, this seating, I applied my leave a bit too late. Now, I can feel the stress, and don't have the feel to sit for my exam in this sitting. Really, stressed!

When stressed, I can't study! I study best when I'm not feeling stressful and that's when I can absorb and grasp what I'm studying best. Stress?! Nothing! Don't feel like starting at all, how to start my revision?!

Tomorrow is that start of my first paper, and yet, I've not start revising. ARGH!!!

my nephew, my dogs and me..

Hmm... Hmm!

Do I look fierce enough??

hehe~ smile..

Nice smile ah..

There's a scratch mark on his hand actually, but seems like can't really see ah.. Never mind.. Look at the next photo then ..

Carry the dog lah! See! The dog scratched your face liao lor.. Handsome not?

Hi!

Hello!

Stop taking photo.. Haha~

Can I don't entertain you?

The dog named Xiao Hei (Lil Blackie).

The one looking at the camera is called Milk Milk.

Don't know what he singing lah.. What what Jia Wei Niu Nai?? Haha~

Waiting for him to sing second time...

Finally it's the second time, but! Still catch no ball leh.. Aiyo~

The 2 doggies are fighting/playing.. Alamak! Night time lor! Still playing..

my feelings..

Have you ever wonder what you really want to be or do in the future? Is what you are doing now towards your goal(s)? Or is it just doing it as that's what you think you will be doing in future; maybe due to the course of your study? Or is it really your dream?

Goal(s)? Ambition? Dream(s)? What are they? I always said that I wanna be a Financial Controller (FC) but I keep questioning myself is that what I really want in life? Maybe what u claimed to be your dream/goal is not what you really want inside of you. The inner you should know better or understand better what you wish to do. However, bear in mind that what you really hope to do may not be realistic and you yourself know very well that it's impossible too. Thus, maybe it's better to have a realistic goal being set; your secondary goal in life.

Emo period is round the corner again. A lot questions start popping out in my mind with no answers also. Well, I don't plan to hear any answers either. There are many things in the world that happened or happen(s) or will happen without a clear explanation. Nobody can explain for it as there's actually no answer(s) to the questions. Just live with it and maybe, one day, you might understand why such things happened, but understanding and providing the exact reason(s) are two different things (to me).

Sometimes I really feel unhappy. Why am I here? What am I doing here? Is that what I want in life? Can I don't think so much? Can I don't worry so much? Can I don't care so much, just close one eye and open one eye, or better still, close both eyes? See the children, the kids.. So naive, innocent, carefree.. What are you adults doing, thinking? I don't understand. I don't need to understand as I really don't understand. Leave me alone.. I'm happy now.. Let me enjoy my childhood and worry about things later.

I start to like the feeling of being alone. I don't daze when alone, instead it makes me think a lot. Travelling on a bus, looking at scenery, people buildings etc. sets you thinking and wondering about many things.

I enjoy watching rainfall, listening to the falling rain drops.. So nice, relaxing.. All my unhappiness seems to be washed away together with the rain. I like to look at the sky. So broad and so high. The clouds are so beautiful, all in different sizes and shapes, making the sky even more beautiful.

I enjoy looking at the sea. Hearing the water splashing sound, enjoying the wind. Sitting alone down there sounds rather good isn't it? Though maybe you'll see a lonely back view of mine but that's when you'll really feel your existence. Face your true feelings, don't you think so? That's what I think will happen to me if I really were to be alone there.

The sky, the sea and the wind...

My dearest nephew is now 3 years old!!

Yes! My nephew, on the date of 24 Oct 2009, is officially 3 years old! Took him to Compass Point to buy presents. His Ah-Ma (grandma, who is my mother lah) bought him 2 shirts, his Ah-Gong (grandpa, who is my father lah) bought him a birthday cake, his Gu-Gu (aunt, who is me lah) bought him 2 toys and his Daddy and his daddy's friend and girlfriend also bought him toy and drinks!

Kids nowadays so good life, can receive so many presents during his birthday. Even if not his birthday, he also receiving a lot of toys, shirts etc. Haha~ Still keep asking me (when I get home from work) if got buy toys for him today not. Omg! I spent a lot of money on him man! Haha~

Recalling my birthdays, at most receive a birthday cake. Presents, hmm... Comes to think about it, not too many, since I can't really remember what I've received during my birthdays and I can only remember that there will surely be a cake for me. Well, maybe because at that time, our financial status is not that well, just enough to spend so called, maybe got save a little. Nonetheless, I still enjoy my birthdays every year, up till today! =D

Alright, share some photos with you:

The birthday boy!

Come on! Give a nicer smile please..

His birthday cake..

Quick blow the candles!! Eeee... All the saliva also in the cake I think.. Haha~

Come! PaPa help you cut the cake..

Birthday boy and Daddy!

Birthday boy and JieJie (my bro's girlfriend)!

a dream..

Had a dream last night and it seemed to be an expression of my thought (sometimes). In my dream, I told my mum that once I've completed my ACCA study (that's when I can save more money than I do now), I plan to find rent a room and move out to stay on my own. Haha~

Been having this thought at times; when I was full with anger inside of me. Sometimes I just don't understand certain things and I already given up, don't wish to say anymore as it's just absolutely useless, just wasting my saliva that's all.

I just want to avoid this type of situation. Yes, it's a selfish thought. Dilemma. It's an on and off thought. On one hand, I want to avoid similar incident while on the other hand, I want to stay with my family too. I still want to get to play with my nephew everyday. Sigh..

Nevermind, it's just a dream only anyway. Haha~ Who knows, maybe, one fine day, I might really move out? Haha~ Nah.. At least not so soon.. Haha~

Photo takings, Dancing & Singing!