Thanks! muackz~

Thank you Mum! Thank you for lending me money and supporting me in being a Herbalife distributor. I understand that you are worried that I might not be able to sell all the products that are on hand right now. I promise you that I'll really work hard and repay you asap. Although you didn't rush me into repaying you back, but I'm just worried that your financial status might not be that good anymore after lending me the sum of money. So, I really hope that I can repay you back asap.

Would like to thank Fi. also for trusting me so much and that, agreed to lend me a small sum of money also. Thanks a lot. I know what your concern is of me entering into this business, but I'll try my best to do this. Maybe, you'll see a different me after I enter this business? Maybe I'll be able to talk more than anyone of you soon, and maybe all of you might end up feeling that I'm very fan, and should stop talking during lunch? Haha~ Let's wait for that day to come then! =)

LH, I know you are worried also. You have my words that if I'm determined in doing something, I'll try my best to do.

Basically, I wanted to be with Herbalife is because:

1. There's really product result. I really did lose around 2kg in 2-3 weeks time after using their product. Yet, I did not need to spend extra money as I'm using my lunch expense to buy the product for consumption. Meaning, I replaced my lunch with the milk shake.

2. I wanted to share my experience, my result with other people, and let those who need help on lossing weight understand that if I can do it, they also can as I've already had my product result.

3. By sharing my experience on using the products, I can also earn an extra income for myself. With the extra income that I'll be earning, I can help in the family. Then my parents need not worry so much about money.

Basically, that's about it. Hope that all of you will support me mentally, give me some encouragement to make me have the confidence to walk this path. Although I know some of you will also worry that I might not able to sell all my products, due to my character (afraid to talk to people), your support (encouragement) is very important. I'll build up my courage and do it. Just a word of encouragement. Can?

can you hear them?

For those who chose to end their own life, maybe it's not that they've chosen to escape from misery. Maybe, they chose to live this world to another world to look for real happiness that they've been seeking for.

No use idling in this place and be a clown everyday. Maybe nobody really knows what they want, nobody really understands them. Most probably is because they don't talk to anyone about what they really feels and thinks in mind.

Why? Why don't they talk to someone? Why can't they be truthful about themselves?

Maybe they are afraid being laughed at? Or maybe they know what others are going to say or comment if he expressed his thoughts to people. He's just too afraid.

Maybe they are just trying to protect themselves from harm. The defensive wall that they've built is so strong that now, not just others cannot get inside, they themselves also can't go out.

Finally, they found a door that can lead them out to a world of happiness which they have been longing for....

free!

Nothing to do can be so tiring, agree? =P

oopsy! i've cut my hair short.. not very short.. haha~

Hehe~ Went to have a haircut this morning.. Cut shorter abit.. As you know, the weather is so hot! Cannot tahan! And I don't like to tie up my hair, so.. keke~ Cut short lor.. Haha~ Like short hair.. Easy to management, make the head lighter, and also, won't so hot. Not bad right? ^^

Taipei 22/04-26/04

Share some of the photos taken in Taipei first. The rest of the photos will be uploaded later, either here or in Facebook, or maybe both. Depends. Haha~ =P

累了。。。

最近情绪起伏不定。。 时好时坏。。 也许对人生感得有点累了吧。。 现在也只想赚多一点钱帮忙补贴家用， 希望家人可以过得比较好的生活。。 可以请个佣人帮忙做家务。。 一切都离我的目标好远。。 好远。。

好累哦。。 真的。。 看看家里的一切。。 好像逃离。。 不去想。。 不去看。。 可能对谁都好一点吧。。

真的。。 累了。。 好累。。

All I wanted to say is...

Asked myself this question again. If I ever have a choice, would I still choose accounting as my job? Answer is a "no". I'm really unsure if I'm really interested in accounting or just because to earn living. Until now, I still can't answer this question.

Something is very right. If you ever want to do something, just go and have a try at it while young. Not like this age of mine now, it's just all too late. =(

If ever I can turn back the clock, I want to learn a number of things or talents so called. And just pick up my courage to take part in competition to gain experience, and to improve further, hoping that one day I will make it. Even if fail to make it, at least I can tell myself that I've already tried. No regrets. In another words, yes, I've regretted.

For these few days, my thought of wanting to try to do what I want to do, is back again. My mind wondering off at times. Of course I know it's impossible to go for it now. Maybe, right from the start, it has always been a mission impossible. Of course, I did realise it long time ago. I can't compare with others at all. There's nothing good and special about me that can enable to work in the area which I'd like to work in.

Ha! Maybe accounting is still the best option for me. Let "the area of work" that I've always wanted to venture into, be a dream. One day, the thought will slowly diminish. Right? Ha~

Sometimes, I really feel that, being myself is difficult. I always ask myself, 想要做自己真的有那么难吗？Why must I behave or dress like what all others are doing? I just don't feel that comfortable, why can't I be myself? Every individual is different. If you think I'm boyish, so? I like it, can't I? If I feel like dressing like a girl, I will. To me, be comfortable with who you are is more important than anything.

Love the show 就想赖着你 because it really said what I wanted to say so much.

杨果：
1. 我相信，总有一天我也会遇到一个懂得珍惜我、在乎我的人。不管我有没有钱，不管我漂不漂亮，他都会永远爱我……永远爱我……
(I believe, that one day, I will meet someone who knows how to Cherish me, irregardless if I'm rich, pretty.. He will love me forever.. )

2. 你不要提醒我什么是事实，我知道什么是事实，事实就是我没有看清楚我自己是什么样条件的女孩子，我竟然还敢不自量力的去妄想一份令人羡慕的爱情......
(Don't remind me what the truth is.. I know what is the truth.. The truth is that I didn't have a good look at myself of what condition I am as a girl, and I still dare to dream of having a love that people will be envy of..)

(Ps: Sorry for the translation. I've done my best. Haha~)

For the first sentence, though I don't really believe, but I can only hope. These two sentences are what I have in mind always. This is the drama which speaks what I wanted to say. I really know what type of girl I am.. I do..

Sometimes, I really feel that, if I can always live in a world of drama, isn't it good? Everytime will have different encounter, different scenarios.. Not just love I mean. Includes other things happening in a show. Maybe friends, family etc. Dramas seems to be a more interesting life to live.

I really feel that I'm lost in life. My job, is this what I really want? Frankly speaking, although I always said that I aim to be Financial Controller, Finance Director, Accountant etc.. I cannot see a future in me, going into this line. I really don't know if I can really succeed.

Like I said, since I can't switch to the area which I have more interest in as I just simply not as good as those people (in any aspects )in that line. I know myself.. Maybe can't even compare with a passerby. Maybe, sticking to accounting as my rice bowl, will be a good choice. Isn't it?