emo + sad + etc...

Been feeling quite emo recently, don't know why also. Maybe it's because of work whereby I'm going to change team and seat (next Monday I'll be sitting at my permanent seat already), or maybe is about someone or something (haha~ don't wish to talk about this, so please don't ask. I'm trying to psycho myself to forget "this" and stopping myself to do something I'll regret in the future, haha~).

(ps: no worries, I'm not doing anything stupid or silly, haha~)

As the days went by, I'm began to feel stronger sense of reluctance. I really hope to stay put at where I am, but I know it's all impossible. Still trying to psycho myself that I'll be able to learn more from the other team since the workload will be heavier. On the other side, I'm also trying to "console" myself that I'll be able to leave in four months' time if I really cannot handle or like the working environment/culture. Haha~ Haven't even start yet I'm already thinking of my next path. -_-'''

Anyway, V, J and C.Y. (though seldom or rarely or almost never work with) are nice people. Haha~ They are my current team people. V and J are the one giving me assignments while C.Y. is the accountant in charge of V and J. I like to listen to C.Y. talking to V and J (especially J) because the way they argue is quite funny. (Funny to us, the non-related parties who overheard the conversation, but not to the three of them.) Not that we, the non-related parties (actually is me plus one temp staff who's sitting beside me only), it's that we are just sitting in front of that accountant. Some more, sometimes they speak so loud that even if you don't want to hear, you can also hear. Haha~ I think that's the most enjoyable "event" sitting in front of C.Y. for these past few weeks. Haha~ Cannot enjoy the "argument" anymore starting from next week onwards. So sad T_T haha~

Oh ya, recently kept thinking of my Ah Gong (grandfather) which I don't know why also. He had passed away for quite few years and suddenly I feel so sad that I've never treasure him when he was still around. Well, tell you more about this in my next entry.

Still feeling very emo and sad and a lot of other feelings now. Don't know how to express in words. Well, I believe that I'll be alright soon. I hope so. =x

the world within

there are times when you want it so much, but you don't get it
while there are other people who don't want it, they just get it
when you desire for it, you hope that your dream will come true
when you hate it, you just hope that they will not pester you

life is so complicated
a lot of things just don't go according to your wish
it's always going against you
making life so miserable for you

why is the world so unfair
shouldn't all be treated equally
why do all the good things being distributed to others
and leaving the bad things for me to suffer

my wish is so simple, but yet it's never been fulfilled
i've prayed and plead with you, i wonder if you ever heard
i've now totally given up hope and prepared to suffer in silence
maybe i just don't deserve to have my wish(s) granted

i'm just like an empty bottle being filled up with air
but the sense of emptiness is still always there
you thought you know what i want and how i feel
but it's just a wrong thought you never knew

life = no choice

I'll be having my Accounting System for the next three days, starting from tomorrow. Well, hope that I'll be able to absorb everything. Tomorrow's training is gonna last me for one whole day, which means that I can't do my work for the whole day and gotta wait till my training end for the day. Think gonna be tiring, but that's life. Haha~

Was asked to wear pants instead of skirt tomorrow as need to climb ladder to reach the top cabinet to get look for a file in order to find the invoice. Haha~ Hope I won't knock my knee against the small cabinet when I climb down tomorrow. Keeping my fingers crossed =x (B'cause that's what happened yesterday and now, there's a big blue-black.. haha~)

Sigh. Gonna change team real soon, in about 2 weeks time. There'll be a new permanent staff to replace me instead of a temporary staff I think since that staff will be undergoing training with us tomorrow. Quite sad and a bit upset man. B'cause that time when I asked if I can continue to work in my current team instead of switching, they told me that my current team is not in need of people now, only the other team needs. And now?! A new permanent staff entering my current team.

Sigh. Already got used to working with the people I'm working with in my current team and I have to switch and adapt to a new way of working style again. Some more, so far I had no good impression of them, neither do I have bad impression or should I say, maybe I got worried working with them after listening to Christopher's "suffering" there. Haha~ And maybe that's why I've been quite reluctant, or rather, very reluctant to change team. Oh well, that's life. We've got no choice at all. Since I've accepted it, then I must try to do well in it. As I told some of my friends, my target will be working up to four or six months there. Haha~ Why four months? B'cause three months probation, plus one month notice in advance. Haha~ Hope I can survive there. Pray for me, thanks.

I start to wonder if I can survive or not, especially if were to pick up part time ACCA. Heard that ACCA is really tough. I really hope I'll be able to pass and work hard towards being an CPA (Certified Public Accountant). Haha~ Good to have a dream or goal and make yourself work towards it. At least there's something in life for you to try to achieve.

(ps: I'll miss working with them.)

Congrats!

Congrats to all polytechnic graduands! We've survived for the past 3 years and graduated from the school. We are all going to embark on a new journey in our life. Jia you!

Went for my graduation ceremony yesterday. I think that's gonna be my first and also my last graduation ceremony since I'm not able to enter university. Haha~ Anyway, we all just look like Harry Potter going up the stage to receive our certificate. Haha~

For some of us, we'll be entering or already entered the working world, while some will be entering university to continue their student life. No matter what, we must all work hard together towards our goal. We'll meet together some day and we'll notice how much we've actually grown. Haha~

Surely there will be unhappiness in life, regardless of studying or working. As it's said, "Life is like a roller coaster, there will always be ups and downs". Well, I guess that's how we learn and grow in life. Overcome the problems, gain experience from it and we can do better in the future. =)

Haha~ Enough of all these crapping. Haha~

All the best to every graduands as we'll be embarking on our new journey! Good luck!

good game!

Wow~ Been quite a while since I last played badminton. Had a badminton session with Hwei Ling, Hou Teck, Ya Hong, Jun De and Wei Heng just now at around 4pm. So shiok man since I've not played for a long time already. Haha~

Both Hou Teck and Wei Heng played with so much strength to play lah. They are like using all their might to hit the shuttlecock like that. Haha~ But it was fun though. Hou Teck's badminton skill had improved quite a lot lah. B'cause last time, during secondary school time, he was still brushing up his skill only. Now is like great improvement? Haha~

Poor Hwei Ling kana smacked by Wei Heng a few times I think. I think Ya Hong also kana hit by the shuttlecock also, but is by Hou Teck if not wrong.

Jun De's badminton skill also seemed to have improve. He's better in the sense that he's not using so much strength to hit the shuttlecock. Luckily he didn't, if not we'll run like crazy just to hi the shuttlecock back. Haha~

Oh ya, met Naidatul (hope I spell correctly.. sorry..) at the badminton court just now. Guessed she went to buy something and was going back home. Haha~ I think she feel a bit awkward when I called out for her since there were 6 people at the court. It's been a long time we've met one another also. Haha~

After a fantastic game, we went to Punggol Park's Bliss Cafe to have our dinner. The food there is still okie. After dinner, we walked to Hougang Mall to shop around for a while.

That's how a day ended. Haha~ Time passed so fast when playing badminton lah. Wondering if is it that I've not played for a long time already and was enjoying the game. Haha~ Next time must meet again for badminton, okie? =)

Just Do It!

Woo~ Just got informed today that I've got the job; I've successfully converted from a temp to a perm staff. Haha~ Should I be happy? Hmm.. Maybe, maybe not. Actually still very half-hearted. Still wanna enjoy my life as a temp staff first (b'cause the responsibility is not that much as compared to a perm staff.. haha~)

Everything seems so sudden. Firstly is the sudden informal interview on Monday whereby I was told about it on Monday morning.

Then, I e-mail to C.Y. some queries on Wednesday night.

The next day, which is yesterday, I was told to fill up an application form first, followed by clearing the queries I've raised in my e-mail. I was then told to bring my certificate(s), I/C and passport-sized photo the next day for the HR.

Today, I brought all the necessary documents to the HR for them to process the application. About 2 or 3 hours later, Y.G. informed me of the pay they gonna offer me (b'cause before that, they can't confirm the pay I'll be getting yet), and after which, I accepted the offer. Thus, I've been converted into a perm successfully.

Haha~ It just happened so fast. Not really prepared for it yet, but since I've accepted it, I must do it. Just Do It! Haha~ Hope everything will go on smoothly. =)

Pray hard for me, okie? B'cause I'll be working under another entity; another team instead of my present team. Plus work load will be heavier then what I'm doing now. I hope I can manage well. All the best for me then. Haha~

short summary update

Wa! Long time never update my blog already. Haha~ In fact, I've not even viewed my blog for a long time until now. Hehe~ Well, just write in short summary then.

Bought my PSP Slim & Lite about one week ago. It's a Lavender Purple colour. Looks not bad. Heartache though. Haha~ Since I've been longing for it, I used my first salary of this present temp job to buy it. Haha~

Had a gathering with 14 secondary school friends at Settlers'. It was real fun. Especially when playing the game called "Gestures". Hou Teck was so funny la. Haha~ Just he alone act out the word is already so funny already. Haha~ Good job, Hou Teck! Haha~ At first thought will be very awkward since a lot of us had not met one another for a long time. In the end, it turned out much better than what was expected. Hope to have more gatherings at Settlers'. Haha~ I want to see Hou Teck "act" again. Haha~

Anyway, saw that some of them had changed quite a lot. Derrick is now better than last time already. I mean the way he speaks now is quite different from secondary school time. Talking to him now is much better than last time. (Sorry ah, not saying that last time you are bad la, just that now is better. No offence, no hard feeling, don't take it to heart, okie?)

Hou Teck seems more matured now. The way he speaks and his actions are quite different from last time. Not that kiddish anymore. Haha~ (sorry ah, no offence, no hard feeling ah.. Don't take it to heart.)

Went Amoy to have my lunch just now, then it started raining when we were about to go back office. No choice but to call C.Y. to inform him we'll be late (responsible mah.. haha~). Actually I don't mind walking in the rain, it's just that I happened to be wearing white top, so I don't feel like doing so. Haha~ If I'm wearing black top, I'll sure walk back drenched. Haha~

Oh ya, taking early leave tomorrow for my Kaplan ACCA talk. Half an hour earlier only. Haha~ Since the talk will start at 6.30pm. Besides going there for the talk, it's also for the $100 voucher which can be used to deduct the ACCA fee. Then can help me save that $100. Haha~

Oh ya, received a call from Hou Teck just now asking if can play badminton on Saturday. Really hope will have a game of badminton with my Buddy before she goes back Canada. Long time never play badminton already, especially with Buddy and friends. Miss the time when a group of us will go for a game of badminton.

left around 6 weeks

Wa~ Already worked for 3 weeks, coming to the 4th week. It's so fast. Had my OT yesterday but due to some problem, we already faxed over our time sheet to the agent for calculation of salary. And I have already indicated on my time sheet that I'll be going off on time. In the end, I ended up OT-ing (I volunteer to OT as there's so much work piling up, scared might not be able to finish and the work will endlessly pile up. Haha~)

Thus, I asked V if I can put the OT time on Monday instead, and I think she said is alright for me to do that. Haha~ Of course must claim OT what. 1.5 hours leh. Haha~

Why fax over time sheet so early leh? B'coz heard that the agent said must submit by yesterday, so no choice but to fill up the time till Friday (yesterday) and fax over. By right we should go and submit the time sheet ourselves yesterday, but both C.Y. and Y.G. are on leave. There's no one to sign the time sheet for us. Thus resulting in having to fax over the time sheet first, and then submit the original time sheet on Monday.

So troublesome. That time they (friends) said can submit early, no need wait till last day of the month to submit. So I went down to submit the time sheet last week lah. In the end leh! Gotta make another trip down again. Waste of my time. But no choice since I want to get my salary. Haha~

Oh ya, mentioned in my previous entry that the company I'm working as a temp now is looking for accounts assistant. I realised that I cannot apply now also as the agency contract states that I'm not allowed to do so. Haha~ Breach of contract if were to do so man. Haha~ Play safe. Better don't apply. At most find others and apply lor. Sigh~