my role in this world - passerby

T_T / \^^/

2010-07-05T23:50:00.002+08:00

Really sian recently. Just wish to put down everything and go for a short break somewhere else. Nobody can find me. Nobody will look for me. Haha~

Someone resigned recently, and the company had put up an advertisement looking for an Accounts Assistant. Wondering whether will be younger than me not. If so.. I'LL NOT BE THE YOUNGEST ALREADY!

Haha~ =p that's what I care about! No lah.. kidding~ People's age will increase as years go pass.. Nothing much to care about. Young at heart and look young can already mah.. haha~

Thanks! muackz~

2010-05-29T03:09:00.003+08:00

Thank you Mum! Thank you for lending me money and supporting me in being a Herbalife distributor. I understand that you are worried that I might not be able to sell all the products that are on hand right now. I promise you that I'll really work hard and repay you asap. Although you didn't rush me into repaying you back, but I'm just worried that your financial status might not be that good anymore after lending me the sum of money. So, I really hope that I can repay you back asap.

Would like to thank Fi. also for trusting me so much and that, agreed to lend me a small sum of money also. Thanks a lot. I know what your concern is of me entering into this business, but I'll try my best to do this. Maybe, you'll see a different me after I enter this business? Maybe I'll be able to talk more than anyone of you soon, and maybe all of you might end up feeling that I'm very fan, and should stop talking during lunch? Haha~ Let's wait for that day to come then! =)

LH, I know you are worried also. You have my words that if I'm determined in doing something, I'll try my best to do.

Basically, I wanted to be with Herbalife is because:

1. There's really product result. I really did lose around 2kg in 2-3 weeks time after using their product. Yet, I did not need to spend extra money as I'm using my lunch expense to buy the product for consumption. Meaning, I replaced my lunch with the milk shake.

2. I wanted to share my experience, my result with other people, and let those who need help on lossing weight understand that if I can do it, they also can as I've already had my product result.

3. By sharing my experience on using the products, I can also earn an extra income for myself. With the extra income that I'll be earning, I can help in the family. Then my parents need not worry so much about money.

Basically, that's about it. Hope that all of you will support me mentally, give me some encouragement to make me have the confidence to walk this path. Although I know some of you will also worry that I might not able to sell all my products, due to my character (afraid to talk to people), your support (encouragement) is very important. I'll build up my courage and do it. Just a word of encouragement. Can?

can you hear them?

2010-05-18T00:39:00.002+08:00

For those who chose to end their own life, maybe it's not that they've chosen to escape from misery. Maybe, they chose to live this world to another world to look for real happiness that they've been seeking for.

No use idling in this place and be a clown everyday. Maybe nobody really knows what they want, nobody really understands them. Most probably is because they don't talk to anyone about what they really feels and thinks in mind.

Why? Why don't they talk to someone? Why can't they be truthful about themselves?

Maybe they are afraid being laughed at? Or maybe they know what others are going to say or comment if he expressed his thoughts to people. He's just too afraid.

Maybe they are just trying to protect themselves from harm. The defensive wall that they've built is so strong that now, not just others cannot get inside, they themselves also can't go out.

Finally, they found a door that can lead them out to a world of happiness which they have been longing for....

free!

2010-05-13T00:26:00.001+08:00

Nothing to do can be so tiring, agree? =P

oopsy! i've cut my hair short.. not very short.. haha~

2010-05-09T23:52:00.003+08:00

Hehe~ Went to have a haircut this morning.. Cut shorter abit.. As you know, the weather is so hot! Cannot tahan! And I don't like to tie up my hair, so.. keke~ Cut short lor.. Haha~ Like short hair.. Easy to management, make the head lighter, and also, won't so hot. Not bad right? ^^

Taipei 22/04-26/04

2010-05-06T08:28:00.006+08:00

Share some of the photos taken in Taipei first. The rest of the photos will be uploaded later, either here or in Facebook, or maybe both. Depends. Haha~ =P

累了。。。

2010-05-04T12:58:00.002+08:00

最近情绪起伏不定。。时好时坏。。也许对人生感得有点累了吧。。现在也只想赚多一点钱帮忙补贴家用，希望家人可以过得比较好的生活。。可以请个佣人帮忙做家务。。一切都离我的目标好远。。好远。。

好累哦。。真的。。看看家里的一切。。好像逃离。。不去想。。不去看。。可能对谁都好一点吧。。

真的。。累了。。好累。。

All I wanted to say is...

2010-04-01T12:42:00.004+08:00

Asked myself this question again. If I ever have a choice, would I still choose accounting as my job? Answer is a "no". I'm really unsure if I'm really interested in accounting or just because to earn living. Until now, I still can't answer this question.

Something is very right. If you ever want to do something, just go and have a try at it while young. Not like this age of mine now, it's just all too late. =(

If ever I can turn back the clock, I want to learn a number of things or talents so called. And just pick up my courage to take part in competition to gain experience, and to improve further, hoping that one day I will make it. Even if fail to make it, at least I can tell myself that I've already tried. No regrets. In another words, yes, I've regretted.

For these few days, my thought of wanting to try to do what I want to do, is back again. My mind wondering off at times. Of course I know it's impossible to go for it now. Maybe, right from the start, it has always been a mission impossible. Of course, I did realise it long time ago. I can't compare with others at all. There's nothing good and special about me that can enable to work in the area which I'd like to work in.

Ha! Maybe accounting is still the best option for me. Let "the area of work" that I've always wanted to venture into, be a dream. One day, the thought will slowly diminish. Right? Ha~

Sometimes, I really feel that, being myself is difficult. I always ask myself, 想要做自己真的有那么难吗？Why must I behave or dress like what all others are doing? I just don't feel that comfortable, why can't I be myself? Every individual is different. If you think I'm boyish, so? I like it, can't I? If I feel like dressing like a girl, I will. To me, be comfortable with who you are is more important than anything.

Love the show 就想赖着你 because it really said what I wanted to say so much.

杨果：
1. 我相信，总有一天我也会遇到一个懂得珍惜我、在乎我的人。不管我有没有钱，不管我漂不漂亮，他都会永远爱我……永远爱我……
(I believe, that one day, I will meet someone who knows how to Cherish me, irregardless if I'm rich, pretty.. He will love me forever.. )

2. 你不要提醒我什么是事实，我知道什么是事实，事实就是我没有看清楚我自己是什么样条件的女孩子，我竟然还敢不自量力的去妄想一份令人羡慕的爱情......
(Don't remind me what the truth is.. I know what is the truth.. The truth is that I didn't have a good look at myself of what condition I am as a girl, and I still dare to dream of having a love that people will be envy of..)

(Ps: Sorry for the translation. I've done my best. Haha~)

For the first sentence, though I don't really believe, but I can only hope. These two sentences are what I have in mind always. This is the drama which speaks what I wanted to say. I really know what type of girl I am.. I do..

Sometimes, I really feel that, if I can always live in a world of drama, isn't it good? Everytime will have different encounter, different scenarios.. Not just love I mean. Includes other things happening in a show. Maybe friends, family etc. Dramas seems to be a more interesting life to live.

I really feel that I'm lost in life. My job, is this what I really want? Frankly speaking, although I always said that I aim to be Financial Controller, Finance Director, Accountant etc.. I cannot see a future in me, going into this line. I really don't know if I can really succeed.

Like I said, since I can't switch to the area which I have more interest in as I just simply not as good as those people (in any aspects )in that line. I know myself.. Maybe can't even compare with a passerby. Maybe, sticking to accounting as my rice bowl, will be a good choice. Isn't it?

=P

2010-03-28T22:57:00.001+08:00

Hey shin! I'm lazy to blog this week, so I'll blog next week, okie? Hehe~ =P

Okie! Next week I'll blog. Settled! Bye~

就想赖着你

2010-02-27T16:22:00.002+08:00

Finally finish watching 就想赖着你 (Down With Love)! So happy. Wouldn't it be so good if in real life there's really such a guy? Well, it's a drama though. Haha~ Like what my friend said, extinct! Haha~ Oops! No offence, but it's really quite not so possible to exist.

Ella is so cute in this drama and Jerry is good looking in this drama. (Didn't realise he can be quite good looking man =X)

Happy Tiger Year!

2010-02-21T02:19:00.005+08:00

Wow! It's already the Tiger year! Chinese New Year is coming to an end soon. Now it's already the 8th day, just past the "ren ri" (CNY day 7). On this 7th day of CNY, we'll have the "qi yang cai" (7 types of vegetables). It's so called a birthday for all. Lets hope that in the year of the Tiger, everything will went on smoothly. All have good health, happiness and money rolling into your pocket. =D Here's a CNY song for all from my nephew and me:

Was watching this drama called 就想赖着你 (Down with Love). Quite a nice show, watched 7 episodes at one go, cool man! It's been a long time since I'm like watching drama in this type of speed also. Haha~ Oops! =X Okie, going to sleep now. Good night~

uploaded photos in facebook =D

2010-01-30T23:07:00.004+08:00

Well, lazy to upload in both places, thus uploaded all photos in my facebook. These photos include those taken during my hair colouring session, Coreen's 22nd birthday, my nephew and I and a lot more. Take a look and you'll know. Haha~

Oh ya, taken some photos during the meet up with Kim Yuen and Yan Ting. Went to Marina Country Club (think so.. =X) there to have steamboat. The wind was too strong so none of us are in the photo. Scenery only. Haha~

Went to K-Buffet with my colleagues also. Taken some photos after eating! Haha~ I always take after eating and not before eating, weird.. =X Well, one of my colleagues drink (Honey Lemon), there's a lemon seed stuck at the straw there. Haha~ So funny.. Hahaha!

lazy to blog again =p

2010-01-25T23:09:00.004+08:00

Haha~ yes! I'm lazy to blog again! oops =x

Ok ok, will find one day to upload all my photos into facebook and my this blog here.

Went shopping with Lay Hoon and Shin Yee yesterday. We went to 313@Somerset to shop. Big place to shop, but bought only 1 piece of vest/coat or whatever you called, at BYSI. Got sales, so saw this vest quite nice, and bought it. Haha~ Asked both girls umpteen times whether should buy not until they feel so vexed already. Wahaha!

After that, Lay Hoon so poor thing, need go back office to work. Oh ya, before we went shopping at 313, Lay Hoon and I went K-Lunch! Long time never go sing with her already. She still sang 183Club's songs. Haha~ I've almost forgotten their songs though. Ok, back to topic. After Lay Hoon went back office, actually Shin Yee needed go back buy food for her brother. But! NEL got some train fault problem. The trains are not coming from either direction. Waited for maybe more than 10 minutes for the train. In the end, the announcement went from "the train will be delayed a while" to "adviced to take alternative". Haha~ Thus! We went to Ang Mo Kio to shop and had our dinner at the S-11 there.

The world is so small. I was standing at the stall selling western food and deciding what to order, I met my cousin there. She came to the same stall as me to order the food. She, just like Shin Yee had said, the food there is very nice. Must try! So, deiciding whether to take chicken chop or pork chop, I decided to try the pork chop. Haha~

So.. That's all about it. Bye~

slow down my weekends... pls... haha~

2010-01-10T14:11:00.002+08:00

Weekends seems to pass so fast, now it's already Sunday and tomorrow have to get back to work again! Sigh~ School has already started, which means that my Wednesdays and Fridays are already occupied! =S Ya, appointment with my lecturers! Haha~

C.P. had left for China this morning and will be back about 1 month later I guess. Before he left, he wanna meet Fion and I for the "last" time. Haha~ Funny man. Sounds as if he's not coming back. But anyway, we've met on Thursday. Thought of watching a movie, but no attractive movie to watch, and also no good time slot for those that we wanna watch. In the end, we ate and chat at Ichiban Sushi.

Yesterday watched New Moon online, quite nice. There'll be a new one coming up, third part of Twilight, called something like Eclipse or what. Waiting for that. =D

a new year means new happiness and sadness

2010-01-03T21:05:00.002+08:00

Have to work again on Monday, and school will be starting on Wednesday. Suddenly feel so tired. Work, study, work, study.. Study so hard for what? Having so much money for what? I earned my money and yet someone kept borrow money from me again and again. Rejected but no use. Keep sms me, and I'm really sick of it!

Spending more than what you can earn? Sorry! It's your own doing! I'm telling you now that, once you've gotten your salary, no more money lending from me to you. NO MORE! I'll shut down my phone and I mean it!

What a start of a new year! Buddy, you are right! A new year means new happiness and sadness. Am experiencing it right now. Sometimes I feel that, my unhappiness seems to be covering my happiness. The only time when I feel relaxed, carefree, happy is when I'm singing or listening to music alone. It's a kind of enjoyment.

Sometimes I hope that I can be like you, buddy. Staying overseas. Experience something which you can't when you are living here with your parents. Maybe when away will you know how to appreciate your family and friends, know who are the one who really care about you and be by your side whenever you are in need.

However, on the other side, maybe it's a way to stay away from some troubles, unhappiness that you are facing in here, and people whom you might not want to see now, will also can't find you there. Pros and cons, I should say. Maybe it's just a feeling right now, I don't know.

end of 2009, start of 2010

2010-01-01T13:01:00.003+08:00

2009 is now history and a new chapter will now begin. Looking back, time really flies so fast that it's beyond my imagination. Didn't realise that I've already worked for 1.5yrs, nearing 2 years in May. I still thought that I've just left my polytechnic life not long only, but it's actually long.

Happiness, unhappiness, sadness, anger and etc, all these feelings should be gone by now. It should end together with the year 2009. We should now start with a fresh new sheet of paper and start filling up our 2010 with more emotions, fun, experiences, stories and so on.

In life, there'll surely be ups and downs. What's important is not that we've fell, it's that we learnt how to stand up and continue to walk on with life. Falling down is not scary at all, instead it makes us learn from our mistakes and improve from there. As people always said, failure is the mother of success. Without failure, where will you get success? Will you really understand the meaning of success and also to treasure it?

Study hard is not enough, working hard also not enough. We must learn how to study smart and smart! Been slacking in my studies in 2009, so I must really work HARD and SMART this year. Cannot afford to last minute study again! Haha~ Every year I'll say the same thing, so.. Hmm.. Just 'listen" will do.. Haha~

Yesterday at work, one of my colleague, K aka my "ma ma", set a new year resolution for me. =S sigh.. Haha~ That is.. To slim down! And not see a "chubby" Eng Eng in 2011! Haha~ Tough!! Oops! BUT! Is true though. After my exam leave, I've gained back my weight again. Gosh! Scary! Must really cut down junk food and exercise more.

In 2009, someone had left this place to heaven and this person is none other than Michael Jackson. Though I'm not a fan of him, but I realised that a lot of his songs I've heard before! Oops! Previously I heard some songs but didn't know that the songs are sang by him, until his death then I knew. The King of Pop, always a King of Pop! Lives in the heart of many people, thus he's not dead actually! Nobody can replace him. His dance. His songs. Bravo! *clap clap clap* Recently just watched This Is It and he's so cool! He's a humble man despite being so famous. I think a lot of people should really learn from him; his attitude in fact. Humble! Understand? Don't be too arrogant! Go Michael!!

In a brand new year, I just hope that I can really set my mind in studying, pass all my papers as soon as possible, get my CPA as soon as possible. Once completed study, I'll focus on my work. Hmm.. Haha~ Boyfriend? Leave it to fate. Maybe in 2011 when I managed to slim down, maybe I'll doll up, maybe I might get a boyfriend by then? Haha~ Since is next year, so we'll talk about it next year. Haha~

Wishing my family and friends and also all the people around the world good health, more money, excel in study, excel in work and may all have a prosperous 2010! Happy New Year!!!

yes! exam's over!

2009-12-20T00:17:00.012+08:00

Oh yes! Exam's finally over! Now enjoying my life without books, feeling so great! Haha~ So, having been a lot of days not updating my blog, I'll now upload some photos taken recently, and also some videos of my nephew's childcare centre graduating ceremony performance by the students there. So cute lor, these kids.. Adorable! Feel like going forward to hug them.. Haha~ Oh ya, please don't mind the conversation from the background of the video. Hehe~ A lot of people talking, so just recorded the conversation while videoing these kids dancing =D

Photos:

hehe.. let's take photo together bah..

Ultraman! (purposely ask him take photo coz his mouth, so dirty! haha~ oops!)

"har!" strongggg~

Ultraman again! har!

Power ranger! har! har!

box Gu-Gu, monster! i'm a power ranger!!

i'm a monster now! Gu-Gu "peng" me..

"ti ti ti" power ranger!

har!

Photos taken by Divan:

Videos of kids performing at the childcare centre graduation ceremony:

don't feel like studying!!

2009-12-08T10:17:00.002+08:00

No doubt that studying can be fun, but not when you need to work and study at the same time. Tiring and it's like, don't have sufficient time to study for people like me who are not the hardworking type. I prefer to study last minute as I can remember better. Seems like, this seating, I applied my leave a bit too late. Now, I can feel the stress, and don't have the feel to sit for my exam in this sitting. Really, stressed!

When stressed, I can't study! I study best when I'm not feeling stressful and that's when I can absorb and grasp what I'm studying best. Stress?! Nothing! Don't feel like starting at all, how to start my revision?!

Tomorrow is that start of my first paper, and yet, I've not start revising. ARGH!!!

my nephew, my dogs and me..

2009-11-06T23:42:00.006+08:00

Hmm... Hmm!

Do I look fierce enough??

hehe~ smile..

Nice smile ah..

There's a scratch mark on his hand actually, but seems like can't really see ah.. Never mind.. Look at the next photo then ..

Carry the dog lah! See! The dog scratched your face liao lor.. Handsome not?

Hi!

Hello!

Stop taking photo.. Haha~

Can I don't entertain you?

The dog named Xiao Hei (Lil Blackie).

The one looking at the camera is called Milk Milk.

Don't know what he singing lah.. What what Jia Wei Niu Nai?? Haha~

Waiting for him to sing second time...

Finally it's the second time, but! Still catch no ball leh.. Aiyo~

The 2 doggies are fighting/playing.. Alamak! Night time lor! Still playing..

my feelings..

2009-11-01T16:25:00.002+08:00

Have you ever wonder what you really want to be or do in the future? Is what you are doing now towards your goal(s)? Or is it just doing it as that's what you think you will be doing in future; maybe due to the course of your study? Or is it really your dream?

Goal(s)? Ambition? Dream(s)? What are they? I always said that I wanna be a Financial Controller (FC) but I keep questioning myself is that what I really want in life? Maybe what u claimed to be your dream/goal is not what you really want inside of you. The inner you should know better or understand better what you wish to do. However, bear in mind that what you really hope to do may not be realistic and you yourself know very well that it's impossible too. Thus, maybe it's better to have a realistic goal being set; your secondary goal in life.

Emo period is round the corner again. A lot questions start popping out in my mind with no answers also. Well, I don't plan to hear any answers either. There are many things in the world that happened or happen(s) or will happen without a clear explanation. Nobody can explain for it as there's actually no answer(s) to the questions. Just live with it and maybe, one day, you might understand why such things happened, but understanding and providing the exact reason(s) are two different things (to me).

Sometimes I really feel unhappy. Why am I here? What am I doing here? Is that what I want in life? Can I don't think so much? Can I don't worry so much? Can I don't care so much, just close one eye and open one eye, or better still, close both eyes? See the children, the kids.. So naive, innocent, carefree.. What are you adults doing, thinking? I don't understand. I don't need to understand as I really don't understand. Leave me alone.. I'm happy now.. Let me enjoy my childhood and worry about things later.

I start to like the feeling of being alone. I don't daze when alone, instead it makes me think a lot. Travelling on a bus, looking at scenery, people buildings etc. sets you thinking and wondering about many things.

I enjoy watching rainfall, listening to the falling rain drops.. So nice, relaxing.. All my unhappiness seems to be washed away together with the rain. I like to look at the sky. So broad and so high. The clouds are so beautiful, all in different sizes and shapes, making the sky even more beautiful.

I enjoy looking at the sea. Hearing the water splashing sound, enjoying the wind. Sitting alone down there sounds rather good isn't it? Though maybe you'll see a lonely back view of mine but that's when you'll really feel your existence. Face your true feelings, don't you think so? That's what I think will happen to me if I really were to be alone there.

The sky, the sea and the wind...

My dearest nephew is now 3 years old!!

2009-10-25T22:24:00.004+08:00

Yes! My nephew, on the date of 24 Oct 2009, is officially 3 years old! Took him to Compass Point to buy presents. His Ah-Ma (grandma, who is my mother lah) bought him 2 shirts, his Ah-Gong (grandpa, who is my father lah) bought him a birthday cake, his Gu-Gu (aunt, who is me lah) bought him 2 toys and his Daddy and his daddy's friend and girlfriend also bought him toy and drinks!

Kids nowadays so good life, can receive so many presents during his birthday. Even if not his birthday, he also receiving a lot of toys, shirts etc. Haha~ Still keep asking me (when I get home from work) if got buy toys for him today not. Omg! I spent a lot of money on him man! Haha~

Recalling my birthdays, at most receive a birthday cake. Presents, hmm... Comes to think about it, not too many, since I can't really remember what I've received during my birthdays and I can only remember that there will surely be a cake for me. Well, maybe because at that time, our financial status is not that well, just enough to spend so called, maybe got save a little. Nonetheless, I still enjoy my birthdays every year, up till today! =D

Alright, share some photos with you:

The birthday boy!

Come on! Give a nicer smile please..

His birthday cake..

Quick blow the candles!! Eeee... All the saliva also in the cake I think.. Haha~

Come! PaPa help you cut the cake..

Birthday boy and Daddy!

Birthday boy and JieJie (my bro's girlfriend)!

a dream..

2009-09-26T14:25:00.002+08:00

Had a dream last night and it seemed to be an expression of my thought (sometimes). In my dream, I told my mum that once I've completed my ACCA study (that's when I can save more money than I do now), I plan to find rent a room and move out to stay on my own. Haha~

Been having this thought at times; when I was full with anger inside of me. Sometimes I just don't understand certain things and I already given up, don't wish to say anymore as it's just absolutely useless, just wasting my saliva that's all.

I just want to avoid this type of situation. Yes, it's a selfish thought. Dilemma. It's an on and off thought. On one hand, I want to avoid similar incident while on the other hand, I want to stay with my family too. I still want to get to play with my nephew everyday. Sigh..

Nevermind, it's just a dream only anyway. Haha~ Who knows, maybe, one fine day, I might really move out? Haha~ Nah.. At least not so soon.. Haha~

Photo takings, Dancing & Singing!

2009-09-20T23:36:00.010+08:00

What the hell is going on?!

2009-09-18T22:12:00.003+08:00

No need to go to work for these 2 days as I was on an Advanced Excel course. Feeling so great, as though was a long weekends for me. Thursday(17/09/09) till Monday (21/09/09) there's not a need to go to work! Haha~ Happy! No need to take leave and yet can escape from going to office for work. No bad isn't it? Haha~

Heard that Rhino's father-in-law has been admitted to hospital and a limited number of days left. Actually, felt quite sad upon hearing this even though I may not know him. Of course when you heard negative news, even if is a stranger, this type of news sure is saddening, am I right to say so?

Recently my grandmother also not that positive looking. Well, maybe might not last till next year. I hope to see her continue living happily in this world, but she's more like suffering in pain now. She fell down like a week or 2 weeks ago, suffered from a fracture. Couldn't operate as firstly, she's already quite old (90+) if remembered correctly, plus her heart is not that strong anymore. So, couldn't take the risk and Doctor also said can't operate on her.

Basically now she can't move, she'll have to stay in her bed most of the time. She felt pain (due to the fracture) and taking medicine to control the pain. Quite sad isn't it? Sigh. Some more to go but I'll not go on here.

Recently quite a number of things seemed to have happened. Well, not major problem (except the 2 incidents mentioned above). Just some minor incidents. Firstly, one of our office's drive crashed. Followed by the broke down of our printer, then comes the invoice printing machine next. Now our computers are all connected to just one printer to print everything we needed to. Then, one of the accountant's PC also spoilt, and heard that today, some can't print to the printer again.

What the hell is going on?! Argh!! Forget it! Never mind..

It's been a long time going to sing already. I wanna go KBOX!! PARTYWORLD!! I WANNA GO SINGING!! Is it that difficult? Maybe it is. Wondering when will I be going and who are going with me. Well, just keep on waiting then...

some videos of my nephew, that's all..

2009-08-29T14:47:00.006+08:00

Demonstrating a dance which he learnt in school.

Oh! This is the longer version. I really mean LONG. He kicks for so long, still kicking! Haha~

He's singing Lan Duo Cong ("Lazy Worm"). So, there's one part of the lyrics which is something like, whole body aching/pain.. That's why you see him pointing from head to toes. =)

Twinkle Twinkle Little Star (Chinese version) + Actions

It's a.. Erm.. Hokkien song called Gai Jiu. I don't really know how to sing, don't ask me =X

Yippee!!

2009-08-15T23:47:00.006+08:00

Yeah! Finally got myself a new laptop! Yippee!! Do you know that I'm so happy about it? Haha~ My old laptop already spoiling, taking me such a long time to on it, such a long time to load things and what's more is that it will SHUT DOWN SUDDENLY!! That's why not been surfing net at home during weekends. It's so frustrating what!

BUT!! Now it's gonna be different. ^_^ I'll be using quite often, and should be updating my blog more often (as compared). Think so, keeping my fingers crossed =X

Well, 7th month's nearing and I hate watching horror movie during that month as it'll set my mind thing about the horror scenes at night when trying to make myself falling asleep. The problem is, I quite like watching horror movie, but normally it's that month when lots of horror movies will be airing. Sickening! Haha~ Why?!

Oh ya, recently been addicted to playing Farm Town on Facebook. My colleagues and me are like, so crazy over it. Haha~ We'll try to hire one another to harvest to help one another earn more money to buy lots of things. Haha~ Quite fun! Should go and try. Please remember to add me as your neighbour as I wanted to hire people to plow my land for me. Lazy to do it myself. Haha~ =P

Alright, for today, just wanna show one of the videos of my nephew singing "Guo Qi" (flag). Ask him sing properly, but he kept wanting to jump about. Haha~ Cute leh.. Haha~

meet up on 24/07/09 Friday

2009-07-28T13:42:00.000+08:00

It’s been quite some time that the four of us (Shin, Coreen, Janice and me) went put together. Hmm.. Where did we go?

Eh.. Oh! Bugis that Illuma to dine at the Empire State. Haha~ The food there is alright, not bad. I ordered the half chicken but to realize that I don’t know how to cut to eat. It looks so awful being cut up by me. So poor thing (the chicken). I’m not going to order half chicken again until I’ve learnt how to cut nicely and graciously. For the time being, I’ll just order 1 full chicken then. Oops! =X kidding kidding~

Oh ya, Janice was so happy when she saw the staff pushing out the dustbin. Haha~ Don’t get it wrong! She’s not looking at the staff. She’s looking at the DUSTBIN! Haha~ Oops! So sorry Janice, didn’t mean to say that. Haha~ No offence, alright? =P

After dinner, we went to have our dessert (also at Bugis that area). Each of us ordered different dessert. Quite nice the desserts, can go there again. But! I forget where that place is, so.. haha~ Must ask Shin about it. Haha~

Instead of going back to Bugis to take MRT, we walked to Clarke Quay instead. Haha~ Enjoying the “scenery” while chit-chatting. Not a long way, or maybe it’s because we are walking and talking at the same time. Hmm.. Possible..

When taking bus no.72 back home, the bus driver, wondering how he drive, brakes so suddenly that I almost fell! Luckily Shin helped me and prevented me from falling.

Nonetheless, it was a wonderful outing whereby we kept one another posted of our recent status. =)

nephew at pasar malam

2009-07-26T19:04:00.004+08:00

For the past 2 weeks or so, there was this pasar malam near my house there. He went there to play while I took the photo for him. Oh ya, I also accompany him to take the Pirate Ship. Haha~

it's my NEPHEW's time again!!

2009-07-26T18:41:00.007+08:00

Riding on his Daddy's back to view the lion dances.

He placed all the fish into each plate and line them up properly.

He FORCED me to put on HIS socks -_-"'

I'm not a willing party, ok?

Don't think his bike is also a willing party. Oops =X

He's lion dancing again!

just being bored.. haha~

2009-07-25T15:08:00.000+08:00

Hmm.. A bit bored so while walking to Tanjong Pagar MRT station after work, decided to take a photo of my colleagues' back view and compare whose back view is the nicest of all.. =X wahaha~

What do you think?

think think think

2009-07-06T23:56:00.002+08:00

Suddenly the long time lost feeling of emptiness is back again.. Suddenly I feel like being alone and feeling that alone might not be that bad after all..

Should I start considering switching to audit work? Or should I wait till after ACCA then think about it as I'm worried that I might not be able to handle work (audit) and study at the same time. Looking at how Lay Hoon is coping, imagine myself in her shoe, I'll be dead very soon. I'm not as disciplined as her, can start revision earlier (at least earlier than me). I'm just too used to last minute study. Sigh..

Feel like taking a bus home from work to think about these issues, which was why sometimes I alight at TPY to take bus 88 home. Look at the scenery and think..

School has started once again. Don't even dare to think about results which should be out in August? I guess so. Don't bother to know the result release date as really not confident this time round which was the reason that I don't dare to think about my results. Wondering how many papers will I have to retake. 1? 2? 3? Wah! Sian~

Hey buddy! Talk to me lah. Though we not able to MSN, but can email to me to have a heart to heart talk what. Or give me a call or I give you a call to chat lah. Don't keep talking to your diary. There's a human here with you and will always be there for you. I'll be your listening ear. I promise.

Okie lah, going to sleep already, Gotta work tomorrow morning. Later cannot wake up.

Good night, diary. May I have a sweet dream~ Haha~ =p

rotting at home for 1 week..

2009-06-26T16:48:00.002+08:00

Sad sad sad... T_T didn't manage to go to Bangkok on last Saturday due to fever. Initially thought the fever was due to the flu jab which I had on last Tuesday, but in the end, it was not. I've seen 3 times doctor, 3 different doctors (1 is company's doctor, the other 2 are the one whom I'll normally go to if sick). Finally the third time after seeing the doctor, the fever finally subsided but left only rashes.

However, the rashes started to itch the next day. Instead of going to work, my mum asked me to go see doctor again to get some cream or medicine to stop the itch. And so I did... Sad to say, the doctor suspected that I'm having dengue fever. He told us that he'd sent a few patients living near my area, to the hospital for dengue treatment. This week, so far, has NOT sent any yet. Well, I guess he suspect that I'll be the next target as he kept looking at me when saying those words, looking so confident some more.. Haha~ So, took a blood test and wait for report to confirm.

That very evening, received a phone call from the doctor to confirm that, yes, I'm indeed tested dengue positive. As my platelet count is not less than 50, he gave me 2options, one is to go straight to hospital, or secondly is to stay at home if I'm feeling alright, don't feel giddy or going faint. I chose the second option which is to stay at home.

That very night, my mum cooked something for me to drink that could help increase my platelet count. Not as awful as I thought. Haha~ Drank and went back to sleep.

Woke up the next morning and went back to the doctor as instructed to get one more medicine from him, and also to do another blood test to see the platelet count. Received the report just now and very happy that platelet count increased. Just increase a bit more will be back to normal range. The doctor said I don't need to go back to him anymore as I'm recovering well. That's good. Spent quite a bit of money already, sigh. But well, at least I'm ok.. Haha~

This whole week didn't go to work, will be back to work next week. Seems like I still got quite a bit of work undone. Gotta rush a bit I guess. Plus, it's month end closing soon again! Tired.

Yoz~ I'm FINALLY back again~

2009-06-16T23:08:00.003+08:00

Haha~ Been a long long long long donkey "years" that I've blogged already, did anyone miss me? Well, I doubt so but it's okie.

Finally exam's over and it's time to relax and play hard till the start of another round of "torture" in July. People have been asking me if ACCA is really that tough. Honestly speaking, if you've done enough work, there's shouldn't be a problem in passing, I mean PASSING, not scoring.

As for me, it's considered tough as.. Haha~ Yupp.. I'm not that hardworking type to study. I'm those last minute "learner", but more likely to be called a bad habit. This habit is really hard to change, and I'm really very used to it. For that I've been doing that don't know for how many years already.

I love studying at night, from 11pm to around 2am or 3am. That's the best time for me to study. Quiet and cool environment. I'll on the radio and listen to 933fm while studying.

A kind reminder, last minute study don't work well for ACCA study. Don't ever do it if you don't want to be like me i.e high chance of failing. Consistency hard work will be the one that makes you pass. Haha~

I'll be going Bangkok with some of my colleagues this Saturday 20 Jun 09 for a 4 Days 3 Nights short trip. Excited! Haha~ Haven't start packing yet, but nothing much to bring, so should be quite fast when packing.

Don't know what should I get for my family and friends, totally no idea yet. Well, wait till in Bangkok then decide since can't think of any right now.

Oh ya, some photos to share here. Went to attend an accountant's wedding on 31 May 09 (the day before my exam). She's so pretty on that day, looks so different. Haha~

short entry is better than none =p

2009-04-13T00:13:00.012+08:00

Eh.. A bit lazy to write a whole chunck of wordings, so I guess will just upload some of the photos (with quite a lot still not loaded up here yet, haha~) with short descriptions (if applicable). Haha~ Don't mind right? Heehee =p

Alright, let's see.. Oh! We've got photos taken at NYNY during Janice's birthday! Haha~ We surprised her by having the staff to bring out the cake and singing a Happy Birthday song for her. Haha~ So fun as it's our first try (in this clique of us).. Hmm..

Say "cheese"! Yeah! Mission accomplished! VICTORY!!

Happy birthday to you, happy birthday to you, happy birthday to Janice, happy birthday to you. Hey! Make a wish and blow the candles quickly! The wax is dripping! Haha~

Next in the queue, can you see my younger nephew Vavan aka Bin Bin? Ask him not to move about so that I can take a clearer picture of him, but... As you can see.. Obviously he's not listening to me. Afterall, he's around 6 months old only.. So.. Haha~

The tv program looks more attractive to me, not your camera... Cannot blame me for moving about as you are blocking my view, Gu Gu..

Disgusting! I was taking this bus 161 home one day after work when I saw these rubbish on the floor. Don't know who's the one so inconsiderate, not throwing away into the rubbish bin after eating. By the way, are we allowed to eat these type of food on the bus? Hmm.. This is BAD!

"I" don't belong here. Can someone bring me "home" or a place which I belong? Please help me find my "parent/(s)" or "master, pleaseeeee...

Look at my nephew.. He's crying! And so I took photos of him crying.. Shame shame.. Haha~

Snap! One photo taken to let him take a look of himself with red red eyes...

Ha! Still continue crying?! I'll take some more photo then.. Wahaha~

Hey! Finally it's me! Haha~ Well, those were taken on the actual day of my birthday in the office. Haha~ My colleagues fork out some money and bought me a cake to celebrate my birthday. Thank you guys! Love you all! Oh ya, the cake was a little difficult to cut as it was filled with fruits.. Haha~

Was sitting my my "lao da" desk to cut the cake. She was on leave during that week..

Quickly take a photo. Worried the wax will drip onto the cake, which I think it did.. Just a little only, no big deal lah.. Haha~ Remove can already what..

Can you see the fruits? Somemore get me 2 big and 1 small candles. No need so "accurate" lah.. Old already leh.. Haha~ Get me 1 candle's enough. Haha~ =p

As you might have guessed, my nephew's playing with my phone again. He's trying to take a picture of the fish, which I think he'd done quite well... As least I can still see the fish. Haha~

Fish!

See anything?

Haha~ Did you see that? The fish is looking at the camera! Haha~

Just cut my hair shorter these few days. Actually no change in the style, only that the length is shorter, and also my fringe.. Not used to short fringe.. Weird feeling.. Haha~

Ugly picture I know. Nevermind, since I'm not pretty at all. =)

lunch-time blogging

2009-03-31T13:16:00.002+08:00

Haha~ Been a long time since I've blogged right? =X

I'll try to blog during weekends then.

Well, reached 21 years old last Tuesday. No special feeling for this birthday, everything is as per normal, just like all my birthdays. Even is supposed to consider a very special day as it's the "Golden Key" day (haha~), but don't feel anything special about it. Just that the age had increased by 1 figure.

Nonetheless, wanna thank all my friends and colleagues who celebrated my birthday and thanks for all your presents and greetings. =D I'll blog the photos here during weekends to let you see. =)

Was feeling tired and sleepy, maybe because Ire is not here. She went on exam leave. All the best, Ire! You sure can do well in your exam, no worries =D (though she doesn't know my blog, so she won't see this but is OK as I've sms her yesterday.)

Life's as usual; boring. Nephew's growing up day by day, and getting naughtier and naughtier. Sometimes really makes our blood boils! I really mean BOILS! Cannot stand him sometimes, so naughty yet so cute. Haha~

Bought a toy for him to play; a guitar. Pray hard that he won't spoil it. Haha~ Next time then buy some other things for him, and of course, for my younger nephew too.

Oh ya, been thinking about visiting my friend and her daughter, so must buy something for her baby daughter too. Well, already thought of what to buy as I went around to see while shopping for my nephew's toy that day.

~Divan taking photos/videos of himself~

2009-02-07T17:22:00.002+08:00

==he's taking a photo of himself==
==actually he happened to snap at the right timing, haha~==

==he's calling my name "ying ying" and telling me that there's light==

it's time for my nephew again!

2009-02-07T16:43:00.008+08:00

Well, taken quite a lot of photos of my nephew and I'm going to show it to you people. He's very naughty yet very cute. Don't know should be angry with him or should be happy sometimes; funny yet makes your blood boil! Haha~

==changing diaper for pooh bear==

==watching and playing lion dance==

==taking bears for a walk==

Li Yun's 21st B'day Party

2009-01-21T23:52:00.000+08:00

Wow~ Time flies~ In a blink of an eye, she's turned 21 years old already. Isn't it fast? Haha~ 21 years old signifies the day when we've already "transformed" from a "young adult" to now, what I officially called an "adult". Haha~

To Li Yun: Happy Birthday!

Thanks for your invitation ya? =)

Oh ya, you you you! Wanted to take a photo with you, KY and me. In the end, I only took with KY. Haha~ Post here as if is her birthday like that. Lol.

days with my dearest buddy

2009-01-10T23:53:00.001+08:00

Haha~ Finally my buddy's back during her break. Long time never see her already and she seems to get prettier.. Oh yes you are, no doubt about it.

Felt quite bad that didn't get to spend much time with her this time round as was working. By the time off work, at most can only meet for dinner. Well, in the end, we met only for about, 2 or 3 days only? Can't really remember.

No matter what, luckily we remembered to take a photo of only the two of us together (last year we've forgotten about it). Wished to spend more time with her, but no time. Sigh~

Buddy! We'll meet more often when you back again, ok? We must go shopping together. You'll help me to choose clothing etc. Deal? Haha~ =D

Oh ya, the last day that we met (together with YH, JM and JD), we went arcade to play games. Haha~ Before we went back home, buddy and I went to get some ice-cream. Hmm.. Yummy~

Gathering with YT & KY =)

2009-01-04T10:21:00.000+08:00

Been a long time since we came out together for the three of us. Actually been saying for a meet up but kept pushing the date. Haha~ Finally fixed a date for a dinner after work. Went Swensen's for a meal and after which, shopping around for a while (shops are all closing already, haha~). Hmm, decided to meet up more often. Let's see when we'll have our next meet up then. Wahaha~

Merry Christmas!

2008-12-25T00:57:00.000+08:00

Ho Ho Ho~ Merry Christmas!

Actually was shocked when I reached office yesterday. Found a gift on my table from HL. After that followed by IY, K and V. Totally shocked! You know why?

Haha~ Clever you people. Yes, I didn't prepare anything for them. Oh mine. Well, planned to get for them during the New Year. haha~

Worked half day and after which, four of us went to KBox at Cineleisure there. Quite disappointed I should say. Well, not nice to mention here, but really disappointed. Nevertheless, we still had fun there. haha~

isn't this bee (chocolate) cute? so cute~

those are the gifts from HL, IY and K

baby Divan (and his blog) is back again!

2008-12-25T00:17:00.004+08:00

Oh yes, it's been a long time since I last updated my nephew's blog. Please go and view them when you've gotten the time to do so. However, I'll still post the photos here for you guys =)

oh yeah, that's mine birthday cake.. yummy~

handsome boy is coming to town~~~

oh look! that's my younger brother! do we look alike?

why did my GuGu (aunt) put that lion on my head?! it should be on her head what...

hehe~ those are my sweets =P

playing with my GuGu's camera, it's so fun!!!

return the phone to me! I still wanna play!

why do I have to smile when taking photo? eh.. got one jie jie (sister) taking with me too~

Dept Dinner @ Park Hotel @ Orchard

2008-12-18T22:48:00.000+08:00

First time going for department dinner (as this year there's no D&D). Well, quite wasted as two didn't join in, one is on holiday, while the other cannot make it. If not, it'll really be the whole Finance team there.

As expected, we were sitting with our clique of friends, talking and playing fool with one another. Seems like lack of some team building between other colleagues. Think they should build up the (finance) team spirit.

Nonetheless, still quite an enjoyable night. My Financial Controller (W.B.) can really talk a lot. He can really start a new topic immediately after ending the previous topic. Wa~ haha~ must learn from him.

Realised that there's quite a number of big-eater there. Don't think they look so slim, they can actually eat more than what you expected/imagine. Haha~ Really power man. Shocked! =S

happy birthday to Hom Hom

2008-12-15T23:37:00.000+08:00

Haha~ Today is Irene aka Hom Hom's birthday. Thus a few of us decided to buy her a cake and celebrate with her in the office. We were all looking for lighter to light that ONE candle (haha~) but in the end, HL found matches in one of the drawers in the pantry. Luckily there's matches, if not, how to light the candle? Huh?! Haha~

Some photos taken with Hom Hom and some of the colleagues:

photos taken during the day to Jackie Chan's cafe

2008-12-12T22:07:00.000+08:00

Omg! Pass will do, really.

2008-12-02T23:12:00.002+08:00

Oh my goodness! I wonder if I'll pass my F4 Business and Corporate Law paper not. Thought can focus on the tips given (of course did read through the other topics, but will concentrate on the tips given), in the end!! Disappointment! =(

I think around 30% to 40% of the tips appeared, the other questions were not. I should have also focus on the areas which I think will come up (I anyhow spot 3 to 4 areas, and 2 or 3 questions did appear), but I didn't! I just read through the answers from the exam kit for about 2 times or so, without paying much attention to it. Regret ah!

(Of course I know it's not the lecturer's fault, it's all my fault for concentrating too much on the tips given.)

Anyway, just hope that can pass as there are about 2 or 3 questions which I anyhow write some answers just for the sake of not leaving any blanks in my answer booklet -_-'''

Now start to worry about the tips given for my F5 Performance Management paper. Wondering if I can concentrate on those tips not as the lecturers' seem quite sure that the tips are quite accurate, or I should say, for one of the topic mentioned, it seems that it will certainly appear.

Well, think I'm going to concentrate on the tips again due to time constraint. Haha~ Of course I'll revise through every topics/areas, not just the areas under the tips given.

All the best to myself and everyone else taking the ACCA papers. Cheers!

Celebration @ Jackie Chan's cafe

2008-11-28T21:57:00.000+08:00

Wa~ Seems like I've not been updating my blog for ages. haha~

Well, yesterday went to Jackie Chan's cafe to celebrate Shin Yee's (belated) birthday. Aiya, forget to take photos of the food before eating. Wasted.

Ordered some food and Shin Yee's was not hot enough; the sauce (I guessed) was still quite cold and Janice asked the staff to help her warm a little more. After a while, is the chef who brought the plate of food back to Shin. Hmm.. A bit surprised I think, and he still asked if Janice's plate is alright not (because Shin and Janice ate the same).

After finishing our "main course", we asked for a menu to order dessert. Surprisingly, the menu didn't reach us, but came 2 types of desserts, a treat from the chef (for the above incident mentioned). Shin felt so "paiseh" and didn't dare look at the counter direction where the chef was standing. haha~

Well, it's their culture I guessed. I told Shin to go and compliment the chef and thank him (of course, asked her do a lot of stupid stuff, jokingly). haha~ In the end, before leaving, she asked us to accompany her to thank the chef. BUT! haha~ we were packing too slow, and so she went to thank the chef alone. heehee~

(Buddy, we will bring you there when you're back, ok? We've already decided. haha~ So you can't say NO! haha~)

After a wonderful meal (haha~), we started to take some photos. Oh ya, we've forgotten to take photos of our food, sigh.. Anyway, ya, been taking photos along the way as there's Christmas decoration. Next time (after my exam) then will upload the photos here.

Haha~ I know I know, owing a lot of photos already. Been saying wanted to upload the photos and yet didn't do so. Sorry ah.. Haha~ =P

So.. Ya, enjoyable day. Haha~ Lost thought of what I wanted to type already, so.. Stop here already. hahahaha~

Photos during Bull Charge

2008-10-30T13:02:00.003+08:00

Here are the photos which were taken during The Bull Charge:

Baby Divan vs The Bull Charge

2008-10-25T23:55:00.003+08:00

Yesterday was a great day for me. It was my nephew's 2-year-old birthday, and it was also my first time taking part in a charity run (The Bull Charge).

At around 3pm++, those who signed up for the charity went to collect the shirt and get changed into the shirt (given), shorts and track shoes. After getting changed, near 4pm, the participants had already left the office for another building to gather; Clifford Centre. My first time seeing the other colleagues from the Clifford Centre, and I know not a single soul. Haha~ So was actually blurred there.

Then we proceed to take a group photo at the sculpture at Singland Tower. Some of us left our belonging there before going to Padang for the run. Oh ya, saw a colleague whom I used to speak on the phone with. Haha~ He said Hi to me, but I don't know who he is. Haha~ Then he told me that he's B.K., the one who always talk to you (me) on the phone, don't remember? I was like, Oh.. It's you.. Haha~

Although we took part in the Fun Run, I walked like 85% of the 3.2km? I only jog and stop and jog and stop for a while. Haha~ Still got a lot of people behind me, ok? That's why I didn't run even though already nearing the finishing line as the people in front of me are all walking towards the finishing line. Haha~

After the run, went home to celebrate my nephew's birthday. Invited some of my brothers' relatives and friends, and 3 of my nephew's friends. Haha~ The cake was quite big, with a big Pokemon picture on it. Forget what's the name of the Pokemon already, it's a orange-coloured dragon. Haha~ Next time then upload the picture.

Basically, with so many kids in the house, everything seems quite chaotic. Haha~ Cannot control man. Headache ah! Haha~ Very fun though. Think everyone had a good day here celebrating Divan's (nephew) birthday.

Happy (belated) birthday, baby Divan! Grow taller and stronger healthy. Have a happy childhood here. Love you~ Muacks!

Grow up? Not to grow up?

2008-10-15T13:17:00.001+08:00

Sometimes feel that maybe it's better not to grow up than to grow up. As you grow, you being to know and learn more things, and the more you learn about it, the more unhappier you'll be. Thus, sometimes it's better not to know than to know.

Would you prefer to be an adult or would be prefer being a child?

Pros and cons, is that what you going to answer me? haha~

Anyway, went to watch Painted Skin with Shin and Janice on Monday. I should say that it's quite nice to watch. Quite funny, touching and action also. To me, it's worth the money. Thumbs up! haha~

Mirrors vs The Eagle Eye

2008-10-05T00:12:00.001+08:00

Within 2 weeks watched 2 movies. 1 is Mirrors and the other is The Eagle Eye. Watched with 2 colleagues, Fi and CP (temporary staff).

For Mirrors is I who wanted to watch and drag these 2 down as I'm scared. Haha~ Got friends around, won't be that scared. As for The Eagle Eye, is CP who wanted to watch. Nonetheless, both movies are quite nice to watch.

Mirrors not really scary or horror, but get shocked by some cheap scares? Haha~

The Eagle Eye is an action movie. Not bad at all, nice to watch. Don't trust the computerized world, ok? Haha~ Computerized world (system) will go against you and do something against your wish. A foe rather than a friend to human. Haha~ Kidding.

Oh ya, wanted to watch Painted Skin too. But Janice said she wanted to watch also, so waiting for her to confirm the date with me. Wondering when will we watch. Haha~

Vavan, I wish you are by my side...

2008-10-02T08:27:00.003+08:00

Ha~ Guess nothing can be a big blow to me anymore as this is the biggest blow ever. What shit boy-girl relationship or husband-wife relationship is all about? It's just nothing!

Now, even though my stupid problem not solved, but I'm no longer thinking about it. This recent event is all I can think of. I love him and I'll miss him...

Vavan, always remember you've got this Gu Gu (aunt), and I'll always love you.

Everyday I'll look at your picture to kiss you, and ask you to be a good boy. Though I really hope to watch you grow up, but, well...

Miss you, Love you~

2008-09-28T22:55:00.003+08:00

So many things had happened for the past 2 weeks, and yes, the worst was on Saturday, 27th September 2008.

Things will start to change from now on. Initially I was so happy about the birth of my second nephew, and now I'm feeling so pain having to leave him. My nephew is fine, nothing went wrong, just that something happened in the family and now, left with no choice, but to part with him.

I'm just an Aunt and yet I'm feeling so pain having to do so, I can't imagine how hurt my brother is feeling.

(Sorry, some family matters, do not wish to disclose here.)

Nonetheless, I still hope that I'll get to see him some other time. Maybe not now, maybe not so soon. Hope can see him and play with them the next time round, though might not be often. To me, can see him better than never see him at all. At least I'll know that he's living well, and is a healthy boy.

I just want to let my younger nephew (named Vavan) that I, his Aunt, love him a lot. Hope he'll grow up as a good, healthy, obedient and clever boy, just like his elder brother Divan.

Gu Gu (Aunt) really miss you~

Birth of My Younger Nephew!

2008-09-22T22:54:00.002+08:00

21st September 2008 is the day when my younger nephew arrived in this world, a place where he calls a Home. At 8.01am, my sis-in-law gave birth to my younger nephew.

When I received this piece of good news, I was overwhelmed with joy. Haha~ Can't wait to see how he looks like. Well, over the phone, my bro told my mum that this little boy looks alike with his brother (my elder nephew).

When I heard that, I immediately know that he'll be very cute looking. Haha~ Of course, since I dote on my nephews a lot, they are sure cute in my eyes.

Anyway, will upload the picture of my younger nephew the next time round. =)

What a wonderful day~ Haha~

Final Decision!

2008-09-16T13:28:00.004+08:00

Alright! I've already decided what to do! This time round I'm really firm about my decision as I've already told a few about it. I'll not back out! I hope I won't.

No pain, no gain! That's what V said. Just go ahead and try or else you'll never know. Go! Go! Go! Jia you~ No matter what happens, I know these few will be there for me, to cheer me up. Haha~

Before I can really take action, I must confirm a few things first. What I wanted to say is, I don't know how long will I take to accomplish my "mission". Nevertheless, if the "result" is out, I'll let you all know what the heck am I doing.

As for now, those who know just keep to yourself. Those who don't know, just remain as it is? Haha~ You can go and guess but I won't release it until I got my "result slip". Haha~

Although had made this decision quite long time ago, but was holding back for multiple reasons. Until yesterday when I finally made up my mind to just give it a try. No use waiting or guessing or whatever. Just do something about it to get an answer.

Sigh. Still got a fear. Not fear of getting a "poor result", but fear of what "consequences" I'll face if I really "fail". Yet, I still decided to go for it. No pain, no gain! Go for what you (really) want and don't live with regrets!

Haha~ Hope I can take it when the "result" is out. I will!

at the very least, I've tried =)

2008-09-06T16:31:00.003+08:00

Tell yourself, "At least I've tried".

That's what I've told myself after I've tried to solve my problem. Though result is not considered as what you want, but at least you still give it a try even though knowing that this will be the outcome anyway.

No regrets will there be after trying, don't you agree? At least the problem is now, more or less, considered solved. Just work harder a bit on it and it will be solved in no time. Looking forward to that day.

Anyway, enough on this (the above issue) as I know that nobody will be interested anyway. Haha~

So, how has life been going on for you guys? Well, unknowingly, I've actually worked in this company for 4 months plus, going 5th month soon in about 1 week's time. I mean, that will include my temp's period there. I started working as temp staff in the middle of April 08, and converted to a permanent staff around mid May 08 too. To be more precise, about 5 weeks of temp, I was being converted (counting from effective date).

Wow~ Really darn fast. I wonder how long I'll be able to stay in this company. Maybe i don't have confidence in myself for doing a good job there. who knows I might be fired? Haha~ Hope won't have that day anyway. Bad for my resume. Haha~

Now, I'm starting to worry about my study. I'm scared that I'll fail in my exam. Yesterday, on of my colleague asked me if I've got confidence in passing my two papers. Guess what's my answer? Haha~

Ya! I got confidence that I'll fail the papers.

That's true! I'm not kidding. Though majority of the contend for these 2 papers are from poly's work, but these 2 papers are also the not so good papers during my poly time. Definitely I'll scare that I'll not be able to make it.

That's why I've begin to look through my poly's lecture notes for Business Law. Well, to refresh memory I mean, as the ACCA notes are too briefed. it has to be read together with the textbook in order to get a clearer picture of what's going on. Hardworking, isn't I? Haha~ First time ever doing this, so you can sense how worried I am for the coming exams, don't you? Haha~

Where?!

2008-09-01T20:51:00.003+08:00

Time machine! Where are you? Bring me back to the past and let things restart from there. I don't want to face this problem anymore. Bring me back where I've got no worries in life.

Brain-washing machine! Come out, you! Wash away all my troubles and unhappiness to make me a happy man again.

Courage! Don't hide anymore! You can't hide forever. Where are you? I really need you now. Show yourself now!

Heart! Is that really what you feel? Should I go with my heart or my brain?

Brain! Why can't you unite with heart to help me make a final decision. It's so tiring to think and think and think.

a lost sheep

2008-08-30T10:37:00.003+08:00

I've given myself a month's time to solve my problem and half a month had already passed in a flash. Instead of getting more relieved or half-way through solving the problem, I've became more and more vexed than before. I'm now completely at a lost of what I should do. Really lost!

I've been trying real hard to solve the problem, not really solve, but to try to stop thinking about it in a month's time. I wanted to push it to the back of my mind and not think about it, yet I didn't manage to do so.

Yes, I've been thinking whether I should go for it instead of just pushing it back of my mind, but I don't dare to give it a try. I remember I used to tell myself and others, "Don't live with regrets"; but where's my courage now? Just a simple or easy step which I can just do and my problem will be solved, but I don't dare to go for it. Why?

Most probably I'll keep all these thoughts to myself and not share with anyone anymore. Those who knew about my problem, I think that's all you all are going to know. Maybe I'm not going to update you guys anymore. I'll just keep this to myself and only one will know although HE might not be able to supply me with the answers I want to know. At least I can confide in HIM as HE's willingly to listen to my long long speech, story etc.

As for consultation wise, I'll consult my colleague(s) will do. I'll ask in terms of a third person in a casual talk like that. Get their opinions and make my decision. (Only 2 colleagues know my problem, the others don't. Thus, will be asking them through a normal conversation with them so that they won't suspect anything.)

I'm really feeling tired. I don't know how long I can take it further. Maybe I'll seek for way(s) to relief myself. Try something which I've never done before. Of course, I won't let anyone know about it as that's going to give a bad impression. Well, say say only. Don't think will execute it. Haha~ As I said, I don't have the courage to do so. Dare to say, Don't dare to try/go for it. Haha~

Happy Teachers' Day!

2008-08-29T22:26:00.001+08:00

Happy Teachers' Day to all the teachers who had or have not taught me before. Thank you for all your guidance which made me who I am today. Without you, I might not be able to make it today. A big THANK YOU to all teachers in the world.

Your love for us are unselfish. You've shown care and concern for all the students; unbias. We students can feel it. Though sometimes we might grumble all your nagging, but we know you are doing all these for our own good. You've never given up hope on us even if we are hopeless at times. Thank you for imparting all your knowledge to us and making us who we are today, besides our parents.

Went back to my secondary school today and found out that a lot of the teachers who taught us, the pioneer batch, had left. The teachers we know who are still in the school is getting lesser each year.

We spoke to Ms. Wong (form teacher during secondary 3 and 4) and found it a pleasure talking to her. As Shin Yee said, we don't feel stressful talking to her anymore. Instead, we really enjoyed the conversation. She's one of the teachers whom we'll never forget in our life. I'll always remember that she loves to say that there's no class spirit from our class. Haha~ There was once we wanted to prove our class spirit to her and so we put on a performance on one of the Teachers' Day celebration. Sad to say that she's on course on that day, so she didn't see our performance specially put up for her.

Maybe it's time to have a class gathering as we've lost contact with quite a lot of our classmates/friends. Then we can ask the teachers to join us too.

I wondered how's Ms. Tan Geok Choo (hope I spell correctly, sorry) doing now. Long time never see her already. Wondering if she can still remember us if were to ask her out. Heard that her health condition is not that good, really hope to see her again. Messaged Mr. Tang to wish him. Glad that he replied to my message.

(taken in the school hall)

what an unlucky day!

2008-08-26T18:20:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was such an unlucky day for me. Wondering if is Monday blue or is it really that no luck. From morning till evening, bad lucks were kept falling on me.

Going to be late for work, I walked faster than normal so that I won’t be that late. Who knows, out of nowhere, a bee suddenly appear right in front of me. I was so afraid that I’ll knock onto it, I quickly dock away.

PS: Just by a few centimeters I’d have bump onto it.

Then when doing my receipts, as you know, I need to stamp my company’s account number onto the cheques and bank-in slip. For TWICE, I’ve touched the ink! Yes, the ink got stained onto my fingers and it’s hard to wash away. Trust me.

Then this person called to ask for something (work stuff) and not that friendly. The tone was quite harsh. Do I owe you money or what? I don’t know. Haha~

See! All unhappy events just happen one by one. Omg! My mood was totally down down down. It was only after lunch when my mood got slightly better. Sigh~

What is the aim of my career?

2008-08-22T00:05:00.004+08:00

Haha~ Y.K. was right! It's time for me to start thinking of my job; as in what I really want to do in the future. What is the job scope or task(s) I would like to do that could help me advance in my work.

I cannot stick to doing the same job for long time. Yes, maybe for now, but not for the future. As she said, the faster way to get pay increase is through promotion. However, how fast or how slow I want to get myself promoted will depend on me and nobody else.

Through taking up more responsibilities (of course must perform up to standard too, if not also no use), then can I gain my credits. The problem is, am I ready to take up my responsibilities yet? I'm not very sure.

Well, maybe I should try on new stuff so as to learn more. Basically I cannot ask them to give me work which is applicable to my study now as it's on Performance Management. Haha~ Now all I can remember from this module is... BUDGETING! Haha~ So, that's out of the question. Maybe next semester's topics I might be able to apply to my job? Haha~

My future goal in this line is to be a Financial Controller (FC). Haha~ For now that's my goal. Of course I must work step by step to achieve that. Thus, my first goal in this process to being a FC is first, to be promoted to Account Executive level from current Account Assistant position. Followed by being an Accountant. The becoming a FC. Haha~ LONG WAY TO GO MAN! Haha~

Actually I planned to go into audit field for few years after completion of ACCA to gain more experience. Experience as in, how the accounts are being done in different industries etc. In addition, also to get to know more people, so called, building up network. Haha~ It's through audit whereby you can get to know more people and try to build a good relationship with them. Haha~

After having said so much, what's my goal now? Haha~ Hmmm.. I'm also not very sure if I should ask for more type of tasks. If so, what are the tasks that I want to try out so that I can ask from them. Guess that's gonna spend me some time to do so thinking before I can have the answers for it as now I've got nothing on my mind now. And I really mean NOTHING. Haha~

on leave today~

2008-08-20T16:15:00.002+08:00

Wahaha~ Finally can rest for a day. Yes! I'm on leave today! It's the leave in lieu of National Day, so of course must take. If not, this leave will be forfeited, not worth the while man. Haha~

Must be wondering where I'll be going during my leave right? Tell you, NOWHERE! Staying at home to babysit as long time never play with nephew already (weekdays I mean) or rather, keep him accompanied. I'm worried that I'll not be that close with him if he didn't stick with me that often. Haha~ Too dote on him already. Haha~

I guess my second nephew will not be that close to me as compared to my first nephew as I'll not have time to babysit him everyday. Unlike this first nephew of mine, I've been taking care (sort of) from the day he was born until now. Haha~ I'll try my best to keep both nephews accompanied often though. Yup~

Anyway, been feeling better already. Thanks for all of your concern. =D

Although the problem is not solved yet, but I've learnt to look on the more positive side, and also, not to think about it that often. Let nature takes its course, and everything will be solved by itself when time's up. I shouldn't worry, or rather, think that much as it won't get me anywhere also. Of course will still think, but I'll try to divert my attention and think of other things. Haha~

Oh ya, time really flies. My three months in this permanent job had passed and already had my confirmation this week. Wa~ Just blink your eyes and three months just fly away. Actually, I've been working in the company for four months already, if were to include my temporary period there. Haha~

All I can say is that, I enjoyed working there. For me, I'm actually looking out for the environment factor when looking for job; the people I'm working with or I should say, the people working in the same office. I'm not that concerned about money factor (for the time being I should say).

Why? Sounds so stupid like that. Got good pay I don't want? Haha~ Well, to me (for now), even if I got high pay but the colleagues are all not nice to work with, and everyday I have to drag myself to work and work unhappily somemore, no matter how high the pay is, I'll sure quit! I'm not happy down there, why should I force myself to work there?

Haha~ As I said, my this thinking might be for now only. As I grow, thinking might be different. I might work for high pay instead of working with nice colleagues, who knows? I don't disregard this possibility as people do change. Haha~

1 month's time to settle my problem

2008-08-13T21:11:00.002+08:00

I know that Buddy will be damn pissed off at me if I were to say this again. She might ignore me, I don't know. I'll just say anyway as I've already gathered enough information which make me make up this mind.

I've decided to let go of the problem, giving myself another 1 more month to get things settled unless there is a miracle which can turn things positive.

I know it's gonna be hard, but I'm trying very hard now. Though I might not be able to settle it, at least I can push it to the back of my mind first. I believe I'll get it done over one fine day.

I'm now suffering in silence and no one knows about it, except for those who know my problem. Anyway, I think I can hide myself well in front of people as none of my colleague actually notice it while I'm working. Haha~ Good isn't it? I'm still smiling everyday, look happy everyday. Just that sometimes deep down inside of me, I'm now. It's just like a clown who seems happy physically, but when the mask is being removed, you'll then realise that he/she is putting on a sad face instead. Yup, that's me right now. Haha~

No matter what, I must have faith in myself that I'll settle this problem soon. I want to be a real happy person, not a clown.

Jia you!

May Buddha and God bless me~

when will I stop thinking about ***?

2008-08-08T21:44:00.003+08:00

ARGH!!

When can I stop thinking about ***?!

*** just kept popping out in my mind, regardless of where I am, what I'm doing.

If positive thinking, I'm still alright with it. BUT! It's all the negative thoughts that I'm having, and making lots and lots of assumptions without clarifying these doubts I have in mind.

Well, maybe as Lay Hoon said, a step at a time. Plus Buddy who asked me to work hard myself, I can't expect that something will just fall from the sky and provide me the answers to my doubts.

Conclusion is that, I have to do my part by trying my best while at the same time, taking step by step and not rush into the matter. If not, I think I'll make it worse.

Anyway, thanks for being there for me, Lay Hoon and Buddy (at this point in time, these are the only two who know what I'm talking about), and of course not forgetting the Buddha and the God who are always there for me.

No matter what, I'll pull through this stage. *keeping my fingers crossed* I hope so.

Note: *** refers to the problem

part and parcel of life

2008-08-06T00:20:00.003+08:00

As mentioned in the previous entry, am not feeling great recently. Been sorting out my thoughts these few days. Though I've decided on the actions that I might want to take, but it seems like I don't dare to go for it. Scared of the disappointment and also that the ending results might not be a good ending. It's holding my decisions back again. Dilemma state again.

Admit that I sometimes I just couldn't concentrate during work, and what my colleagues/in charge asked me to do, I didn't really get it into my mind as my mind was on something else. Luckily Ir. is a nice person, didn't get angry when I approach her again. I hope this situation will improve.

Maybe Buddy was right, when I got held back, the more I'll think and then the more I'm unhappy with as I'll have a lot of questions with no answers in my mind. Just go for it and settle once and for all. You'll get the answers you want and from there then can you make your final decision to get things done. Haha~

Well, maybe Fi. was right I guessed. A lot of things will happen throughout our life. It's just part and parcel of life. Experience it and learn from it. Though maybe it might be one of your unhappy moment in life. Not unhappy, but maybe a moment with doubts? Haha~ My opinion only.

Anyway, hope that the Buddha and the God will give me strength these few days, and provide me guidance on how I should settle this thing. If not, provide me the answer to my questions. Thank you Buddha and God (in advance).

the recent me

2008-08-04T21:26:00.005+08:00

Feeling not that great recently. At a lost, in a mess. Thoughts were just running wild. Been asking myself so many questions without any answer at all. One question will lead to another question, and these questions seems never ending. The more I ask myself, the more I get depressed. Found myself couldn't really concentrate at work recently, feeling so vexed and disappointed with myself.

(Don't ask me what's the problem, thanks.)

Anyway, all I hope for is that time will "cure" me; meaning I'll get better as time goes by. I must believe in myself that I CAN DO IT! Haha~

I realised that whenever I'm feeling vexed, unhappy or what so ever (negative feelings), I'll travel on a long bus trip home after work. Instead of alighting at YCK, I'll alight at TPY and take a bus home. That's when I'll do some self-thinking while looking at the scenery. Sometimes it really helps to clear my thoughts while sometimes it just fails on me.

Actually, besides travelling on a long bus trip, I would like to go to a beach or with a friend, have a drink (don't have also can) and enjoy the breeze while chatting or confiding the problem(s) encountered and gain some advice from him/her. Well, didn't manage to execute this plan. Haha~ So now the bus is my "companion" when I need to figure out some thoughts.

I'm putting on a strong front, but actually I can be quite fragile at times. I may look happy and smiling all the times is because I don't want to show people the "troubled" me. Nonetheless, I'll always be back to normal soon. Thus it doesn't really matter that much. If I really cannot get over or I need help to regain back to normal, I'll surely approach someone (one of you) for help. Therefore, there's no need for you all to worry about me (for those who really cares about me, which I think is of a countable figure with one of my hands).

Sometimes I really wish that I'm not me; I'm somebody else. Not the stupid me, not the ugly me, not the fat me, not the shorty me. There's just too many parts of me which I don't like. Well, that's what made me who I am today. What do I like about myself then? Tough question! Maybe it's my eyes (including eyelashes) and that's all? Haha~ Think so.

Been so pessimistic these days so I kept telling people and also reminding myself to be optimistic. I can't! Whenever I tried to think of the positive side, all the negative thoughts will just flood my mind and wash away all the positives. I must try harder to psycho myself to look on the bright side of life.

Enough of all those. Anyway, the happier time I had these few days (starting from the day where negatives dominate me) is my lunch time. My colleague(s) keep me entertained and made my mind free of all troubles (for the time being though, but is better than nothing). She/They can be very funny, especially when lunching with the both of them. It can be a very interesting "event". Haha~

Oh ya, have the same question as Buddy; I wonder how many people are actually reading my blog. While, to look on the positive side, the fewer the better then I can blog secrets here. Haha~ Kidding. Negative side is, maybe I should shut this public blog down and create a private one whereby all entries will be secured with password. I think I'll rather shut this down than password it. Haha~

Updated Divan’s Blog =)

2008-07-30T19:36:00.000+08:00

Hey people!

Updated my nephew’s blog already. Think should remain active this time round as I’m getting his parents to help me update too. Haha~

If you are free, please go and have a look at it.

Very soon, my second nephew will be out. I think I’ll change the blog (if I’m free to do so, haha~) to blog entries for both my nephews. Haha~

Already start to wonder how my Divan’s di di (younger brother) is going to look like. So excited! Haha~ Hope will be as cute as him, but not as naughty as him. Haha~ If not, chaos man. Hahaha~

Share of Thought

2008-07-30T12:58:00.000+08:00

Something which my lecturer mentioned during her class yesterday and I find it interesting or rather, that’s the truth. She said that all of us are actors and actresses. In work we behave this way, but outside of work, it’s completely a different person. The same to when he/she is with his/her friends or when with her family. It just displays the different him/her. Why want to watch those actors and actresses acting on TV when there’s a real life drama going on around us everyday. It’ll be interesting to watch the people around us.

Haha~ Sounds true, isn’t it? At least that’s what I feel. I do agree that people behave differently in different places with different group of people. I’m sure all of us do, maybe we just don’t take notice of ourselves doing so. Think about it and see whether it is true not. Well, I’m not saying that it’s definitely true. It’ll all depend on how all of you think about it. No offence. =) Just a share of thought.

Is this the life I want?

2008-07-28T18:15:00.000+08:00

Ever since started working, life has become so boring to me. Mondays to Fridays all working, left with Saturdays and Sundays to enjoy life. Am I really enjoying my life during weekends then? The answer is “no”.

Gotta give tuition on Saturdays from 12pm to 2pm. Woke up at around 9am++ and then get prepared for the tuition class (prepare some activities, work etc as weekdays were really tired to do so. Especially Tuesdays and Thursdays as there is ACCA study. Haha~ Normally will end up being a walking or “working” corpse the next day. Haha~

That’s why I want to pick up badminton again, meaning to play every week (weekends hopefully). If not, my life is just all about working. Unhealthy life some more. Haha~

Problem is, I can’t seem to find anyone who really loves playing badminton. As I said, when I was younger, I used to play with all the aunties and uncles who love to play badminton a lot. We were learning from one another, improving/sharpening their badminton skill.

If not, play some other sports also can. For example basketball. Actually can also go swimming or jogging during weekends, but talking about jogging, don’t really feel like going. Haha~

Anyway, this entry boils down to the question of whether this is the life that I really want? Or basically there’s not much choice left too. Haha~ However, we must always have a positive mindset. Haha~ It’s not so much to have this kind of life after all. This is only the start, who knows that life might get more interesting as it proceeds on? Right? =) Hahaha~

lunch-in; boredom

2008-07-21T12:51:00.003+08:00

Wa~ Raining so heavily outside. Lazy to take brolly so decided to lunch in instead.

Today is Monday (crap) and am having Monday blues. Haha~ Actually I'm just tired due to insomnia last night; couldn't get to sleep and yet don't know why. Haha~ Still awake at 3am++. Suddenly the alarm rang and it's time to wake up. Omg! Do I have enough sleep?

Anyway, still haven't adapt to working and studying at the same time. Really salute to those who had succeeded doing so. Really darn tired last weekends. Been spending majority of my time taking afternoon nap, plus somemore I slept quite early the previous night. Haha~ Slept too much already, I guess.

Hope I can adapt soon, at least not feeling that tired during weekends. Haha~ I should be out somewhere with friends shopping, if not, should be exercising and not sleeping. Don't you think so? Keep cooping at home seems lifeless. Haha~ Since I'm already "cooping" at the office from Mondays to Fridays already. I should be out taking in some fresh air. Haha~

Actually, I don't know what I should blog about, thus writing some rubbish here. Basically just to get out of boredom since I'm lunching in. Haha~

Okie! See you guys soon. Enjoy work, holidays etc.

Take care! Bye~

Haha~

clouds in the sky

2008-07-16T21:31:00.003+08:00

I just realised that I like to look at the clouds in the sky. Watch the shapes being formed, watch them move across the sky, look at the colour of the clouds etc. It gives me a sense of peacefulness. I feel so relaxed when looking up at the sky, watching the clouds' movement.

It's so cool, I mean the clouds. Can you imagine being a cloud? Freedom! You can be whatever you like. Show your "feelings" openly; happy is a white cloud, unhappy is a dark cloud. When really furious, strike all you want, shout all you want; referring to lightning and thunder.

Haha~ Second paragraph is just crap, so can just ignore. =)

Anyway, had lunch with Shin Yee at Lau Pa Sat (not sure of the spelling) today. Two more days to her last day of her temporary job. After which, rest for two more weeks before her school starts. Study is being preferred than working, don't you agree with me? Haha~ It's alright if you don't. Haha~

Ever since start ACCA, time seems to pass faster than before. Plus I have to give tuition on Saturdays, it seems like one week just flies off in a blink of an eye.

Long time never play badminton already, feel like picking up this sports again; to play every week if possible, just like before. Problem is, I don't have friends who are so in love with badminton who will play with me every week. (I think so, if not wrong.)

Last time I can play every week or almost everyday when I was in my secondary school time is because I played with my brother at the neighbourhood's badminton court. After which, some aunties and uncles joined in when they jog pass. That's how we met quite a few badminton "likers". Ever since start polytechnic life, seldom go play in the evening due to the school timing. As time goes by, it became not going down anymore. Haha~ Anyway, think those aunties and uncles also no time to play with us/me anymore as now I also seldom see them go there for jogging.

Well, hope to find some badminton "likers" or lovers again and I can start my badminton "session" all over again. Like that I can further improve my skill also since I'm not that good either. Play more to play even better, don't you think so? Haha~

the baby is a...

2008-07-13T20:35:00.002+08:00

BOY! Yes, I mean my sis-in-law is expecting a baby boy. I'm gonna have another nephew to play with. Haha~

Well, though I'm hoping for a niece, but regardless whether is a baby boy or baby girl, I'll sure love them. Oh yeah, love them with all my heart. Haha~

Wa~ Cannot imagine if the baby boy is gonna be another of my nephew; CHAOS! Haha~ Sure fight with each other. Wow~ I think the house will be in a mess man, haha~

Should be around another 2 months++ time when my another nephew will be born into this world. So fast, isn't it? I'm getting older as these kids are growing up. Oh mine... Haha~

a completely different life from now on...

2008-07-06T23:03:00.002+08:00

Well, started my ACCA class plus my very first tutoring session this week. My first time to give tuition, and luckily is a primary 2 kid. She's a, can be so called, a relative of mine since she's my sis-in-law's cousin. Haha~ Quite nervous for me as this is my first time, and I didn't know how to start at all. Well, in the end the lesson went on smoothly and hopefully she understood what I've taught her. (We started on a topic which her teacher would be starting the week starting tomorrow. In another words, she didn't learn that topic at all yet. Hope I didn't confuse her. Haha~)

She's actually a clever kid I must say. She got the basic fast. However she scored around 70 for Maths and she was quite upset about it as the other subjects she got 90 over marks. Why like that? I asked her if she understood the topics or not, and she replied a "yes". What went wrong then? That's when she told me that the problem lies with her speed of calculation. She didn't have time to do the paper. I hope that I can help her build up her speed so that she can do faster. Hope I can succeed. =)

As for ACCA class, the lessons were fun, as in the lecturers were quite funny. The lessons were thus not that boring afterall. Just that, some of the things being taught in school seems to have "given" back to the lecturers already, so is now slowly trying to recall what I've learnt in school. Hope that I can pass ACCA though. Must work hard, that's all I can say. Say is not enough, must put in action. Hope that I can really do what I've planned in mind then. Haha~

As for work, ya, everything's just fine. Now is month-end closing for the Accounts, so maybe a bit busy? Haha~ Not really busy, but should I say, busy over the stupid bank reconciliation? Haha~ Since I couldn't balance at first try, must do it for the second or third time in order to balance. Whenever I couldn't balance, I'll say "I hate bank recon". When I can get it balanced, I really love doing it. Haha~

long time never study already~

2008-06-30T21:30:00.002+08:00

Tomorrow is the start of my CPA journey, haha~ Not really, but just a stepping stone? Haha~ Tomorrow I'll be attending my very first ACCA lesson. Quite nervous and yet quite sian also. Well, that's what we called adulthood life? Maybe. Haha~ Working and part time study is no joke, it really tests your determination. Hope I can persevere and work towards my goal; CPA. Yeah! Jia you! Go Go Go!

*hope I can be a good student who will not doze off during lesson time. haha~*

Never realise that this is my third week in my permanent team. Everything's going on smoothly so far. Answering phone calls and making phone calls seem to be getting easier for me. Maybe I'm getting used to it, not that scared anymore. Anyway, just hope that everything (my work and also ACCA study) will go on smoothly from now onwards. =)

Anyway, for my Tuesdays' class, I've got one of my polytechnic's classmate attending the same class as me. Means I might not be alone; I might be able to meet her in class. Not that bad. Haha~ Too bad, it doesn't apply to my Thursdays' class. Well, it's alright anyway. Ever since I've planned to go for ACCA, I didn't expect any friends or classmates who will be same as me. Haha~

photos sharing session - 1

2008-06-21T23:43:00.002+08:00

It's been a long time since I've post any photos on my blog. So here I am to put up some photos for you guys to view. Hope you like it. =)

Days with Buddy in Singapore

Graduation Ceremony

Office

My colleague, Fi, was playing with my phone camera. She's trying to test the camera, so I turned my head to avoid being captured in the photo. While she's taking the photo, the accountant, C.Y. happened to walk by. Thus, forming this "artistic" photo. (He might be thinking that Fi was trying to take a photo of him? Haha~)

Officially switched team this week!

2008-06-21T23:20:00.004+08:00

Yo! For your information, I've already switched to my new permanent team this week. At first couldn't really adapt, especially for the first two or three days. I've not much work to do in that team during those days, even the temporary staff was more busy than me. Sort of feel "extra" in that team.

After which, I began to get a bit more work which can last me for the day. If there's work to do, time seems to pass faster. That's why sometimes you would rather have more work than less work. Haha~

For these few days, I've been either making phone calls or receiving phone calls. As you know, I've got a phobia of phone calls, as in phone calls for work due to not so good experience(s). I think, I've more or less conquered my fear. At least, I don't think that long before making the call to someone. Haha~ Think I still need to work hard in this area. =) I can do it! Haha~

Went lunch with my last time team of people yesterday. It was supposed to be a welcome lunch (so called) for their new permanent staff (I'm no longer belonging to their team from this week onwards), but I was still invited to join them. Haha~ Sort of weird, but still okie. At least I'm more familiar with these people than my current team's people. We went to the restaurant just floors above our office. Was waiting for food and feeling sleepy. Haha~

Anyway, it was a good lunch with the group of people whom I've enjoyed working with for the past two months. Maybe should have more of this type of lunch to bond the people together. I still feel that the people in the office, regardless of which team they belong, seems to be lacking of bonding within their own team. Haha~ Personal opinion only.

Oh ya, Monday I'll be lunching with my current team of people. Should I say, lunch with my person-in-charge (accounts executive, I think that's their position if not wrong), together with the other new permanent staff under the other person. To make it simple, four of us will be lunching togther on Monday, namely Ir, K, C and me. Not sure if there's a change of plan, but that's the tentative plan.

Hope things will get better each day. I'll be starting school real soon; the week after next. Wa~ I think I'll be very tired by then as I'll also be tuitoring on Saturdays. Haha~ I think I'll still survive well. =/ *think so* haha~

ps: I've updated my nephew's blog. Please drop by when you guys are free. =)

as the days are nearing..

2008-06-08T11:18:00.002+08:00

Now we are doing month-end closing, which also means that the day when I'm going to switch to another team is also nearing. Feeling quite sad when I came to think about it. Been enjoying myself a lot under this current team of people. Really. They are really nice and funny people. A very good team of people to work with. The new temporary staff who is going to take over me, you can really consider yourself lucky. Haha~ I'm sure you (the new temporary staff) will also enjoy working with them. =)

Well, I think that the other team of people shouldn't be that bad either. I must work with them before I can really conclude. So far, I think it should be quite alright. Hope so. Haha~ Maybe it's just that they don't smile that often, and that's why I'm little worried working with them, or rather I should say is Ir. Haha~ When she smiles, she looks alright to me, but not when she's not smiling. A bit fierce looking, or not that friendly looking. Haha~

Anyway, I've registered my ACCA course for the July intake. Haha~ Yes! The course will start very soon, on 1st July 2008. Haha~ 3 more weeks only. So fast. Haha~ I'll be attending class on every Tuesdays and Thursdays. Each class will last 3 hours from 6.45pm to 9.45pm. Can imagine how "early" I'll reach home every Tuesdays and Thursdays? Haha~ That's part-time students' life, isn't it? =D

I must try my very best to pass all my papers at one go, and complete the whole course in 2.5 years' time, if possible. If not, hopefully will not more than 3 years. I wanna get my CPA asap. Haha~ That's my goal I've set to so called, motivate myself to study hard. Haha~

recall...

2008-06-04T22:35:00.003+08:00

While travelling on the bus back home, I suddenly recalled something which one of my friends said to me when we were talking about girlfriends and boyfriends. I think it was like almost half a year ago? Haha~ Suddenly, recently, a lot of the past happenings just kept flashing back in my mind. Don't know why and don't understand why. Haha~ Is something bad gonna happen? *CHOY* Haha~

Oh ya, at that time was talking about this friend of mine who likes a guy, but she doesn't dare to confess or let him know. I think is also, that the guy is already attached. If not wrong, she already likes him when he was still single and available, just that she has no courage to express her feeling. At that point of time, I was like, feel wasted for her. She should just go ahead and make known her feeling to him what. Well, that's her decision.

So there came a part when I asked her what she did next or something like that. Cannot really recall the detail. Haha~ Then I recalled what she said to me at one part of the conversation:

Since I (she, my friend) don't dare to let him know, then in order to make myself feel better (the feeling inside), I tried to make him dislike me so that it marks the end of me and him. Since he doesn't like me what. Haha~

Wa~ When I heard this answer or whatever it is, I was totally shocked! I was thinking to myself, why you want to do that. Just remain as usual, isn't it okie already? Do you have to go into that extent to make yourself, like, forget him or let yourself know that it's really impossible, so stop thinking about it?

Haha~ Now, come to think about it, maybe it's a good method or solution to tell yourself to stop all imagination, stop all the impossible thoughts in the mind. Haha~ Worth a try, I think. Haha~ At least you'll stop yourself from bluffing yourself that you and him might be possible. This might help you feel better? Haha~ That's what I feel about her answer right now. Haha~

@ new permanent seat

2008-06-03T22:22:00.002+08:00

Being second day at my new seat, I still cannot get used to it; the computer screen, environment or whatever it is, just a strange feeling. Tend to go back to wrong table after leaving my desk to get something. Haha~ I guess it'll take me a few more days to adapt to it. Haha~

Anyway, I'm left with 7 more days to change to another team. Time flies, really. Well, maybe I'm already getting used to V's and J's working style which I've gotta start all over again to adapt to Ir's working style the next time round. Just to say that, I really enjoy working under them. =D At least I'm not dragging myself to work (most of the time). Haha~

Today, K suddenly called for me (I've got a shocked as I don't expect them to call me or know my name)and passed me a letter, or rather a notice or whatever. It states that we can claim for taxi fare if were to work overtime, provided we worked over 9pm. Well, better than nothing as I think we/they can't even claim after 9pm. Yeah! It's a piece of good news if were to look on the positive side.

Oh ya, she sounded friendly just now too. Maybe she's in a good mood? Haha~ I think she's in a very good mood today as she's more friendly today. Haha~ Maybe because I've not seen her like this before? Haha~ She was quite funny just now. She told C to use other coloured files (I think they going add some files), and not yellow. Haha~ The way she said was so funny lah. Yeah, I was laughing down there, with the others who heard. Haha~ Well, maybe the "incident" which happened just now will able to improve my impression on the other team bah. Haha~

[ps: Think Y.K. (not Y.G., now then I realised I've typed the name wrongly, haha~) not in a good mood today. Her face looked quite black the whole day, plus Vernise being "told off" or something like that when she had nothing to do after completing her task on hand. There wasn't much thing for her, or rather us, to do as they are attending training the whole day. Yup, so not her fault for doing nothing. Thus, I guessed is Y.K. not in a good mood too bah.]

*sigh* Tomorrow and the day after I'll be lunching alone. Vernise's taking half day off while F (the new permanent staff of my current team) is taking 2 days off. Haha~ Sian~

Friday, my last day @ my temp seat

2008-06-01T11:47:00.002+08:00

Ya, I've shift most my of things over to my new seat, or rather is my permanent seat. I can't chat with Vernise (the temporary staff) there that often since we'll be sitting apart. I think that's gonna be quite boring. Haha~

Anyway, it was Te Wei's (the temporary staff) last day and that's why I can officially move to my permanent place. He didn't leave on time or leave earlier on his last day. He normally would leave a bit earlier on normal days. Before he left, the people were so funny man. They told him must be good boy, don't go around cheating girls etc. Haha~ So funny! Well, he's also a funny guy, without him I think it's gonna be boring too. Haha~

Having said so much, just to say that I'll be shifting to my permanent seat on Monday, and I think the "feel" will be different. No longer sitting at the place which I've more or less get used to. Maybe that will make me feel like a permanent staff? Well, maybe and maybe not?

And now, it's really left two weeks before changing team. A bit sad, I think. Well, as I said, that's life. Oh ya, still need to call the IT guy to ask about my email. Have been delaying for two days already, as I really don't know how I shall put it. I don't know if he will know I am not as during orientation that time, I don't remember seeing him. Haha~ Further more, I'm still scared of making phone calls or answering phone calls. Haha~ Gotta overcome this but it'll take times. Give me more time to conquer my fear, okie? =)

I'll enjoy my last two weeks helping V and J before switching over to adapt to the people I'll be helping out with, namely Ir. Hope she's also a nice person like V and J. Haha~ =)

emo + sad + etc...

2008-05-28T21:11:00.002+08:00

Been feeling quite emo recently, don't know why also. Maybe it's because of work whereby I'm going to change team and seat (next Monday I'll be sitting at my permanent seat already), or maybe is about someone or something (haha~ don't wish to talk about this, so please don't ask. I'm trying to psycho myself to forget "this" and stopping myself to do something I'll regret in the future, haha~).

(ps: no worries, I'm not doing anything stupid or silly, haha~)

As the days went by, I'm began to feel stronger sense of reluctance. I really hope to stay put at where I am, but I know it's all impossible. Still trying to psycho myself that I'll be able to learn more from the other team since the workload will be heavier. On the other side, I'm also trying to "console" myself that I'll be able to leave in four months' time if I really cannot handle or like the working environment/culture. Haha~ Haven't even start yet I'm already thinking of my next path. -_-'''

Anyway, V, J and C.Y. (though seldom or rarely or almost never work with) are nice people. Haha~ They are my current team people. V and J are the one giving me assignments while C.Y. is the accountant in charge of V and J. I like to listen to C.Y. talking to V and J (especially J) because the way they argue is quite funny. (Funny to us, the non-related parties who overheard the conversation, but not to the three of them.) Not that we, the non-related parties (actually is me plus one temp staff who's sitting beside me only), it's that we are just sitting in front of that accountant. Some more, sometimes they speak so loud that even if you don't want to hear, you can also hear. Haha~ I think that's the most enjoyable "event" sitting in front of C.Y. for these past few weeks. Haha~ Cannot enjoy the "argument" anymore starting from next week onwards. So sad T_T haha~

Oh ya, recently kept thinking of my Ah Gong (grandfather) which I don't know why also. He had passed away for quite few years and suddenly I feel so sad that I've never treasure him when he was still around. Well, tell you more about this in my next entry.

Still feeling very emo and sad and a lot of other feelings now. Don't know how to express in words. Well, I believe that I'll be alright soon. I hope so. =x

the world within

2008-05-28T20:52:00.003+08:00

there are times when you want it so much, but you don't get it
while there are other people who don't want it, they just get it
when you desire for it, you hope that your dream will come true
when you hate it, you just hope that they will not pester you

life is so complicated
a lot of things just don't go according to your wish
it's always going against you
making life so miserable for you

why is the world so unfair
shouldn't all be treated equally
why do all the good things being distributed to others
and leaving the bad things for me to suffer

my wish is so simple, but yet it's never been fulfilled
i've prayed and plead with you, i wonder if you ever heard
i've now totally given up hope and prepared to suffer in silence
maybe i just don't deserve to have my wish(s) granted

i'm just like an empty bottle being filled up with air
but the sense of emptiness is still always there
you thought you know what i want and how i feel
but it's just a wrong thought you never knew

life = no choice

2008-05-27T20:58:00.004+08:00

I'll be having my Accounting System for the next three days, starting from tomorrow. Well, hope that I'll be able to absorb everything. Tomorrow's training is gonna last me for one whole day, which means that I can't do my work for the whole day and gotta wait till my training end for the day. Think gonna be tiring, but that's life. Haha~

Was asked to wear pants instead of skirt tomorrow as need to climb ladder to reach the top cabinet to get look for a file in order to find the invoice. Haha~ Hope I won't knock my knee against the small cabinet when I climb down tomorrow. Keeping my fingers crossed =x (B'cause that's what happened yesterday and now, there's a big blue-black.. haha~)

Sigh. Gonna change team real soon, in about 2 weeks time. There'll be a new permanent staff to replace me instead of a temporary staff I think since that staff will be undergoing training with us tomorrow. Quite sad and a bit upset man. B'cause that time when I asked if I can continue to work in my current team instead of switching, they told me that my current team is not in need of people now, only the other team needs. And now?! A new permanent staff entering my current team.

Sigh. Already got used to working with the people I'm working with in my current team and I have to switch and adapt to a new way of working style again. Some more, so far I had no good impression of them, neither do I have bad impression or should I say, maybe I got worried working with them after listening to Christopher's "suffering" there. Haha~ And maybe that's why I've been quite reluctant, or rather, very reluctant to change team. Oh well, that's life. We've got no choice at all. Since I've accepted it, then I must try to do well in it. As I told some of my friends, my target will be working up to four or six months there. Haha~ Why four months? B'cause three months probation, plus one month notice in advance. Haha~ Hope I can survive there. Pray for me, thanks.

I start to wonder if I can survive or not, especially if were to pick up part time ACCA. Heard that ACCA is really tough. I really hope I'll be able to pass and work hard towards being an CPA (Certified Public Accountant). Haha~ Good to have a dream or goal and make yourself work towards it. At least there's something in life for you to try to achieve.

(ps: I'll miss working with them.)

Congrats!

2008-05-24T20:18:00.002+08:00

Congrats to all polytechnic graduands! We've survived for the past 3 years and graduated from the school. We are all going to embark on a new journey in our life. Jia you!

Went for my graduation ceremony yesterday. I think that's gonna be my first and also my last graduation ceremony since I'm not able to enter university. Haha~ Anyway, we all just look like Harry Potter going up the stage to receive our certificate. Haha~

For some of us, we'll be entering or already entered the working world, while some will be entering university to continue their student life. No matter what, we must all work hard together towards our goal. We'll meet together some day and we'll notice how much we've actually grown. Haha~

Surely there will be unhappiness in life, regardless of studying or working. As it's said, "Life is like a roller coaster, there will always be ups and downs". Well, I guess that's how we learn and grow in life. Overcome the problems, gain experience from it and we can do better in the future. =)

Haha~ Enough of all these crapping. Haha~

All the best to every graduands as we'll be embarking on our new journey! Good luck!

good game!

2008-05-17T23:11:00.003+08:00

Wow~ Been quite a while since I last played badminton. Had a badminton session with Hwei Ling, Hou Teck, Ya Hong, Jun De and Wei Heng just now at around 4pm. So shiok man since I've not played for a long time already. Haha~

Both Hou Teck and Wei Heng played with so much strength to play lah. They are like using all their might to hit the shuttlecock like that. Haha~ But it was fun though. Hou Teck's badminton skill had improved quite a lot lah. B'cause last time, during secondary school time, he was still brushing up his skill only. Now is like great improvement? Haha~

Poor Hwei Ling kana smacked by Wei Heng a few times I think. I think Ya Hong also kana hit by the shuttlecock also, but is by Hou Teck if not wrong.

Jun De's badminton skill also seemed to have improve. He's better in the sense that he's not using so much strength to hit the shuttlecock. Luckily he didn't, if not we'll run like crazy just to hi the shuttlecock back. Haha~

Oh ya, met Naidatul (hope I spell correctly.. sorry..) at the badminton court just now. Guessed she went to buy something and was going back home. Haha~ I think she feel a bit awkward when I called out for her since there were 6 people at the court. It's been a long time we've met one another also. Haha~

After a fantastic game, we went to Punggol Park's Bliss Cafe to have our dinner. The food there is still okie. After dinner, we walked to Hougang Mall to shop around for a while.

That's how a day ended. Haha~ Time passed so fast when playing badminton lah. Wondering if is it that I've not played for a long time already and was enjoying the game. Haha~ Next time must meet again for badminton, okie? =)

Just Do It!

2008-05-16T23:09:00.004+08:00

Woo~ Just got informed today that I've got the job; I've successfully converted from a temp to a perm staff. Haha~ Should I be happy? Hmm.. Maybe, maybe not. Actually still very half-hearted. Still wanna enjoy my life as a temp staff first (b'cause the responsibility is not that much as compared to a perm staff.. haha~)

Everything seems so sudden. Firstly is the sudden informal interview on Monday whereby I was told about it on Monday morning.

Then, I e-mail to C.Y. some queries on Wednesday night.

The next day, which is yesterday, I was told to fill up an application form first, followed by clearing the queries I've raised in my e-mail. I was then told to bring my certificate(s), I/C and passport-sized photo the next day for the HR.

Today, I brought all the necessary documents to the HR for them to process the application. About 2 or 3 hours later, Y.G. informed me of the pay they gonna offer me (b'cause before that, they can't confirm the pay I'll be getting yet), and after which, I accepted the offer. Thus, I've been converted into a perm successfully.

Haha~ It just happened so fast. Not really prepared for it yet, but since I've accepted it, I must do it. Just Do It! Haha~ Hope everything will go on smoothly. =)

Pray hard for me, okie? B'cause I'll be working under another entity; another team instead of my present team. Plus work load will be heavier then what I'm doing now. I hope I can manage well. All the best for me then. Haha~

short summary update

2008-05-12T21:57:00.004+08:00

Wa! Long time never update my blog already. Haha~ In fact, I've not even viewed my blog for a long time until now. Hehe~ Well, just write in short summary then.

Bought my PSP Slim & Lite about one week ago. It's a Lavender Purple colour. Looks not bad. Heartache though. Haha~ Since I've been longing for it, I used my first salary of this present temp job to buy it. Haha~

Had a gathering with 14 secondary school friends at Settlers'. It was real fun. Especially when playing the game called "Gestures". Hou Teck was so funny la. Haha~ Just he alone act out the word is already so funny already. Haha~ Good job, Hou Teck! Haha~ At first thought will be very awkward since a lot of us had not met one another for a long time. In the end, it turned out much better than what was expected. Hope to have more gatherings at Settlers'. Haha~ I want to see Hou Teck "act" again. Haha~

Anyway, saw that some of them had changed quite a lot. Derrick is now better than last time already. I mean the way he speaks now is quite different from secondary school time. Talking to him now is much better than last time. (Sorry ah, not saying that last time you are bad la, just that now is better. No offence, no hard feeling, don't take it to heart, okie?)

Hou Teck seems more matured now. The way he speaks and his actions are quite different from last time. Not that kiddish anymore. Haha~ (sorry ah, no offence, no hard feeling ah.. Don't take it to heart.)

Went Amoy to have my lunch just now, then it started raining when we were about to go back office. No choice but to call C.Y. to inform him we'll be late (responsible mah.. haha~). Actually I don't mind walking in the rain, it's just that I happened to be wearing white top, so I don't feel like doing so. Haha~ If I'm wearing black top, I'll sure walk back drenched. Haha~

Oh ya, taking early leave tomorrow for my Kaplan ACCA talk. Half an hour earlier only. Haha~ Since the talk will start at 6.30pm. Besides going there for the talk, it's also for the $100 voucher which can be used to deduct the ACCA fee. Then can help me save that $100. Haha~

Oh ya, received a call from Hou Teck just now asking if can play badminton on Saturday. Really hope will have a game of badminton with my Buddy before she goes back Canada. Long time never play badminton already, especially with Buddy and friends. Miss the time when a group of us will go for a game of badminton.

left around 6 weeks

2008-05-03T10:08:00.004+08:00

Wa~ Already worked for 3 weeks, coming to the 4th week. It's so fast. Had my OT yesterday but due to some problem, we already faxed over our time sheet to the agent for calculation of salary. And I have already indicated on my time sheet that I'll be going off on time. In the end, I ended up OT-ing (I volunteer to OT as there's so much work piling up, scared might not be able to finish and the work will endlessly pile up. Haha~)

Thus, I asked V if I can put the OT time on Monday instead, and I think she said is alright for me to do that. Haha~ Of course must claim OT what. 1.5 hours leh. Haha~

Why fax over time sheet so early leh? B'coz heard that the agent said must submit by yesterday, so no choice but to fill up the time till Friday (yesterday) and fax over. By right we should go and submit the time sheet ourselves yesterday, but both C.Y. and Y.G. are on leave. There's no one to sign the time sheet for us. Thus resulting in having to fax over the time sheet first, and then submit the original time sheet on Monday.

So troublesome. That time they (friends) said can submit early, no need wait till last day of the month to submit. So I went down to submit the time sheet last week lah. In the end leh! Gotta make another trip down again. Waste of my time. But no choice since I want to get my salary. Haha~

Oh ya, mentioned in my previous entry that the company I'm working as a temp now is looking for accounts assistant. I realised that I cannot apply now also as the agency contract states that I'm not allowed to do so. Haha~ Breach of contract if were to do so man. Haha~ Play safe. Better don't apply. At most find others and apply lor. Sigh~

what you think?

2008-04-30T20:17:00.003+08:00

Been thinking if I should just decide to go for ACCA.

Haha~ None of the uni wants me, or should I say is one of the uni since I've only applied for one uni. Didn't receive any call from them for interview yet. Think I'm unwanted bah. Haha~ Thus, been thinking if I should have just study ACCA instead of uni.

If were to go ACCA, should I take full time or should I take part time? Been thinking of going for part time studies if were to go ACCA. Like that can earn money for the school fees and also, pocket money. Family's not in a financial position whereby they can pay for my study. Gotta depend on myself. Either borrow from bank, or work. That's why I'd like to choose part time ACCA.

If choose part time ACCA, means I gotta find a permanent job. Preferrably as an auditor assistant, if not, an account assistant. Knew that the company I'm working as temp accounts now, is looking for an account assistant. Wondering if I should apply for the position not. Scared of the interview man. Haiz~ Haha~

What do you guys think? Should I try and apply not?

lunch alone =(

2008-04-29T13:14:00.002+08:00

*sigh* Christopher on MC today due to bloated eyes (stay up too late playing games lah), leaving me alone for lunch again. Sian -_- Luckily I've got my Buddy to chat with me for a while. Haha~

Nothing better to do now, so just finished filling up the Sudoku. Now blogging as still got around 15 minutes left for lunch. Haha~

Reasons for not lunching when alone:
1. Feel weird if were to join others for lunch, especially if with a group of unfamiliar people. I'll be sitting there like an idiot like that, listening to unknown conversation. Boring also.
2. Why don't go alone? Because if were to go alone, gotta book seat using tissue paper. The problem is not that I don't have tissue paper, just that, I'll tend to forget where I've put the tissue. In the end, I'll be lost in the hawker center, looking for tissue paper. MY tissue paper, I mean. Not others. Haha~

Well, guess some are already back for lunch. I'll start work on time (1.30pm) since if were to start earlier, no pay will be given. Haha~ So calculative hor? Well~ Haha~ Who cares? That's the truth anyway.

Buddy! Jia you for your finals! You surely can do it de, no worries. You've got my moral support. Haha~ I know lah, exams period is a stressful period. Once over, you'll feel much better already. Jia you ah! You'll be back soon. We'll relax and enjoy during your holidays, okie?

(Buddy! Why this time round come back for such a short period only? Cannot really spend much time with you man. *sigh*)

S*** LUNCH!!!

2008-04-24T22:29:00.005+08:00

Went to the place where we normally have our Zi Chai (don't know how "spell"). I think it's called Buddy's Shop or whatever the name it is. So fed up with the person, you know?! This was what had happened:

I ordered a place of FRIED RICE and then it came a plate of SALTED-FISH FRIED RICE, asking if it was mine. Of course I said it's not mine as I had ordered FRIED RICE W/O SALTED-FISH. Thus they came and brought me what I had ordered for my lunch.

When I just started eating, another person brought out the SALTED-FISH FRIED RICE again, and asked her colleague who was it for. Guess what the person replied?!

Person: This is who's SALTED-FISH FRIED RICE?
Colleague: The person at table 22 ordered this SALTED-FISH FRIED RICE, and then change to FRIED RICE.

Hello!! Why are you pushing the blame to me?! I've not ordered any SALTED-FISH FRIED RICE before! I remembered very clearly that I've ordered. Even if I've forgotten, the plate of SALTED-FISH FRIED RICE can never be ordered by me as I don't really like to eat SALTED-FISH FRIED RICE.

What customer service was that?!! Pushing the blame to the customer!! Most probably is that the order had been taken down wrongly! If the person had told me nicely that she had mistaken the order as SALTED-FISH FRIED RICE, I don't mind having SALTED-FISH FRIED RICE.

Really is F***ING bad customer service man! Damn pissed off by them. Really just feel like walking off without paying the bill. Don't wish to patronise that stall anymore. Rather go further a bit, like Amoy, Lau Pa Sa or whatever, than going back to lunch.

F****ING HELL!!

(sorry for the vulgarity)

1st week of work

2008-04-21T21:41:00.002+08:00

Day 1

Couldn't get used to the timing at all! Haha~ Gotta wake up early in the morning, and then will get sleepy in the afternoon. Felt like closing my eyes for a rest. Haha~ Went alone for lunch. One person did ask me if I know where to go for lunch, and I replied that I know. She didn't ask if I wanted to join them but I also didn't ask her if I could join them. Oh ya, this lady, V, who approached me was quite nice. She's worried that I did not bring a brolly as it was raining at that time during lunch, she offered me her brolly. Thanks a lot~ Since I was alone, plus it was raining, I skipped my lunch for the day! Yeah!

On this very first day of work, I was being told that I would "belong" to two person; meaning I need to help to do the job for two accountants. In the morning, I'll "belong" to J, and afternoon will be V. I was like, a bit shocked. Haha~ Cannot imagine how to help two person. In the end, I'll complete J's work halfway, and then proceed to help V. Of course, it will end it being halfway done too. Haha~ Gotta speed up my work already. Oh mine...

Day 2

Similar to day 1, just that I had my lunch today. Haha~ I went to buy one big pau, sit somewhere outside the office building and eat. I think that's when I got to know that Christopher will be joining me soon. Haha~ Happy~

Met my IPP senior during lunch time. Haha~ Long time no see her already. Quite happy to see her again. Arranged to meet for lunch the next day as she knew I'm lunching alone. Haha~

Day 3

Nothing unusual for the day, except V's on leave; which means I only need help one person today. But I think those data entry type of job I still need to do for V as I think C.Y. (their senior, I supposed) had got the job over from her. Just that lesser work to be done.

Day 4

V's still on leave. Thus been helping out with J. Happy for the day as I had EILEEN as my lunch partner! Haha~ Very happy~ Long time never see her too. Some time back we said want organise an EMRS outing, in the end I think because we don't know what to do or where to go for the outing, the outing was not being out into action. Haha~ Anyway, glad to see her. Same old her. Haha~ Thanks, Eileen! Thanks for making my day! Haha~ Exaggerating?

Day 5

V's still on leave. No lunch partner, thus don't feel like going lunch. Thus when it's lunch time, I took a rest at my table. Took out my phones and played some games. When asked by C.Y. why I'm not going lunch, I told C.Y. that I don't want to eat alone, thus not going. So C.Y. asked if want to join him not, and I replied that I don't want to go. When being asked, "you sure?" I began to think again because I know I'm hungry, just that I don't want to lunch alone. I pondered for a few seconds and decided to go. Haha~ So indecisive. Every time when being asked "you sure?" I'll stop and think again. Haha~

Poor C.Y. for trying to find topics to talk. You know what, I'm a girl of few words. Haha~ Haven't finish my sentence yet! Girl of few words when I'm with someone I'm not familiar with as I get "warmed up" very slow. Can see that C.Y. already tried to come up with topics. Poor thing..

Well, at least I've got a lunch partner for the day. Haha~ Christopher's joining me soon, so no more worries about lunch! Haha~ Woo~

Job scope

Maybe I didn't mention very clearly what I've been doing for this job of mine. Basically is data entry, filing, preparing cheques, preparing quick cheque deposits and writing of pay order. More or less the same everyday. Been doing quite slowly as I'm worried that I might make mistakes somewhere, especially when keying data into the accounting systems. Still trying do faster in order to complete the tasks on hand faster. Still learning. =)

sorry..

2008-04-18T23:02:00.004+08:00

Guys, so sorry that I had not been reading your blogs ever since I've started working. I've not even on my laptop from the day I've started working.

I'll read all your blog during weekends, okie? I'll also update you guys on my first week of work. =)

Been waiting for next Monday to come as I'll have a lunch partner soon! Haha~ Yea! I'm alone for lunch. Cannot blame them for not asking me to join them also since I also didn't open my mouth to ask if I can tag along.

But I do feel weird if were to join them, around 4 or 5 people since I don't know them at all! Except one of them, the one whom I'm helping out with. You know, it just feel so awkward having lunch with a big group of "strangers". Most probably they'll only talk to you awhile, after which they'll proceed with their topics. And you (me) will sit down there, listening to their chit-chats with a blurry mind as you don't know what they talking about at all! Haha~ If were to go with 1 or 2 people, I'm still okie with it.

Next week Christopher will be joining the same company as me, so I'm not ALONE anymore! Haha~ That's why I told Christopher that I'm very happy and am waiting for him. Haha~ No other meaning... Must make myself clear, if not his girlfriend will come bash me up. Haha~ Kidding~

Update you guys more in the later part then. Tired already so I'll go have my sleep first, okie? Haha~ Night~~

*yawn*

stress!! help me please!!

2008-04-13T21:47:00.003+08:00

Argh! Still feeling so stressed! Still worried if tomorrow's work will be a good experience not.

The contract stated that wearing a skirt is compulsory from Monday to Thursday with pants allowed only on Friday. Guess what? I've searched high and low, but only found one skirt. Haha~ That's the skirt which I wore for prom night during sec 4. Oh mine!

My agent was unable to contact the person in charge, so I was told to wear pants on my first day and see how first. If they were to complain, then I've got no choice but to wear skirt. Which means I need to go and buy skirt and wear for just 2 months! What a waste of money! No choice. Sigh... Hope that they won't mind a temp staff wearing pants instead of skirt. I'm only a temp! I'll still be wearing formal wear, just that it's not a skirt as my bottom.

I've made up my mind to wear pants tomorrow and see how it goes. I think I'm gonna get scoldings from them bah. So worried now. Plus bad experience(s) on accounting job, I'm now so scared, worried and stressed! I really don't know what to do.

*pray hard that tomorrow will be fine*

Already informed one of my friends that I might need to call her up tomorrow. Still so stressed up now. Wanted to break down, but didn't. Maybe if I were to cry out now, I might feel better? Not sure..

Gotta wake up at 6am in the morning for 2 months! Back to the same building which I did my IPP. Wondering if I would met some of my IPP seniors not. Haha~

Nephew's not coming home tonight, feel even worse. If I got my nephew by my side, can at least make me forget about my work tomorrow. At least I can play with me (though he'll make me angry lah, haha~). Nothing to do now makes me think about tomorrow. The phobia is there, and it doesn't seems to go away easily. Been telling myself that I'll work and buy things for my nephew. Haha~ Doesn't seems to work.

Really~ Help!! Somebody please counsel me! Psycho me! Tell me it's gonna be alright!

*sigh* x infinity

Oh mine! Going crazy soon... Why why why?! Coward me! Just work as a temp accounts assistant can also make me so scared. How?!

Maybe I should change my career path to teaching pre-school kids or toddlers. Haha~ Since I find it enjoying to play with my nephew. No stress at all! Haha~

Argh!!! STRESS!!! STRESS!!! STRESS!!!

I want my NEPHEW!!

fear =/

2008-04-10T22:17:00.005+08:00

Haha~ A friend of mine called me to ask if I'm looking for a job. Of course I replied "Yes!". He told me he got a job which can earn me $x/hour and asked me to call his agent if I wanted to take up. Frankly speaking, I couldn't recognise his voice during his first call, and left me wild guessing who he is. Finally, while feeding my nephew, I realised who he is. Haha~ He's Yao De! Haha~ He used another phone to call me, thus I didn't know that it was him who called. =/

When he asked me to call his agent from R.Express (don't wanna mention the full name here), I realised is the same agent as mine. Haha~ Thus my agent called me back after a while, and said that after going one round, he's back again. Haha~ So coincidental! What a small world it is. Haha~

*it's a small world after all*
*it's a small world after all*
*it's a small world after all*
*it's a small small world*

Well, a bit of reluctance to work, especially as an Account Assistant. Maybe due to bad experience(s). No choice since I'm going to be an Accountant in the future, so I need to conquer my fear and win this battle. Slowly at a time, I mean.

If shortlisted, I'll be starting work on next Monday at Raffles Place I think. Wa~ Suddenly realised I got no nice nice formal wear for work at that type of place. Thus, I planned to buy a few pieces of nice nice formal top (hopefully I can as there is money constrain).

Omg! Still got a fear actually. Can totally feel it when accounting job is being mentioned to me. I MUST WIN!! If not, how am I going to be an Accountant next time? Yes! Jia you! Haha~

money?

2008-04-07T15:04:00.004+08:00

*sigh*

So much to be said, but don't know what to say. When will they ever learn to be parents?! My nephew is like my son like that. Baby-sitting him most of the time.

Wanted to go out, but whenever I came to think about my mum having to look after him on her own if I were out, it will hold me back. Maybe that's one reason why I prefer to slack at home without a work till now.

Truth is I need MONEY! Wanting to lessen the burden of my dad. He's the only one supporting the family. So pitiful also. Supporting TWO families at a time. Still need to pay the housing loan, utilities etc. Plus my nephew's expenses! Wa~ That's quite a lot, you know?!

Oh well... That's what I called "LIFE". Imagine if I can get into uni?! That's gonna be a bomb! I need to work to get my financing man. But... Sigh..

Many things to say, but I think better not. =/

updated my nephew's blog

2008-04-01T15:42:00.003+08:00

Just finished uploaded some photos on the nephew's blog for the second entry. Well~ Still trying to figure out the problem I've encountered when using the blogskin for his blog. Sigh~

You see.. When I upload the video, there will be a "copy" or "image" of the video being showed after the video. I'm trying to get rid of it, but still don't know how. Argh! That thing is making me mad! That's why I've not been updating that blog.

While I'm trying to solve that problem, I'm also looking for other blogskin which will not have this problem with the videos (alternative). Haha~

How I wish I can create my nephew's very own blogskin. Haha~ I'm an IDIOT in this IT. Wahaha~

buffet @ Suki

2008-03-31T17:06:00.006+08:00

Met up with Shin Yee, Coreen and Janice for my belated birthday meal =)We went to Suki for buffet and ate real full. Haha~ They kept my present in the box for keeping the chopsticks.

At first didn't suspect much about the black plastic bag (present) as I thought maybe is supposed to be there or what. Later when we going to finish the meal, Janice called my name, like trying to say something to me, but didn't say anything.

As for that Coreen, she kept saying, 5.40pm ah.. Erm... 5.45pm lah.. When time's up, Janice called my name again, but this time round, she finally said something. They asked me to look around me to see if anything is not supposed to be there, are there at that place. So I tried to look around. They told is quite obvious, and so..

*ding* I remembered the black plastic bag! I picked it up and was asked to open on the spot. So happy and surprised to see a HANDCUFF necklace. Yes! That's what I've always wanted to buy.

Thanks a lot! Love you guys! Love you too, buddy!

( can see that Coreen is very hungry! )

( i'm enjoying my meal now, can see? )

( would you want to eat first? )

( yummy! hehe.. )

( that's the handcuff necklace, can you see? )

( can't see?! now, can you see? hmm.. )

Happy Birthday (to me)!

2008-03-24T22:53:00.004+08:00

Haha~ It's my birthday today! Wa~ Unbelievable! Time really flies. I still remember when I was in primary school, how I hope I can turn into an adult as soon as possible. Why? Freedom! That's what I was thinking at that time. Still remember when I was in primary school, I was wondering when will I be taking my PSLE. Just when I entered secondary school, I was wondering how long would 4 years be in order to complete my O Levels. As usual, when in polytechnic, I would count down to the days when I would graduate.

See! Now I've officially graduated but I don't feel any excitement or happiness at all. Still figuring which route I should take in order to have a good life in the future. What's more, I'm one year older today! Omg! 1 year nearer to join the group of Senior Citizens. Haha~ Well, gotta admit that I'm getting on with ages (unwillingly). Wahaha~

Okie! Birthday wishes for this year. Erm... Gotta be a bit greedy this time round as there seems to be a lot of things or thoughts to be done or figure out:

1. Get accepted into uni/granted ACCA Scholarship successfully. If not, get a good job (friendly colleagues and enjoyable working environment) with a good pay.
2. To successfully lose some weight for next CNY. Haha~
3. Family and friends live happily and with good health. (very important; same wish every year)
4. Everything will proceed smoothly throughout the whole of this year. =)
5. Get a good temp job.

Yup. Think that's about all. Haha~ Too greedy? No choice!

Last but not least, thanks for those who sent me your greetings and wishes! Thanks a million. *muacks* to all! Haha~

photos taken during Janice's b'day celebration

2008-03-24T14:33:00.006+08:00

Below are some of the photos we've taken during Janice's birthday celebration:

Janice's birthday present - book relating to Gundam

at Settlers

taken in a washroom

"artistic" pictures

taken outside the shopping mall

( being FORCED to take this way, we are STRAIGHT! )

taken somewhere near the place which we went after Shin Yee left

( JANICE! WHERE ARE YOU GOING?! )

( JANICE! YOU HEARD ME?! STOP!!! )

( COREEN! CALL THE POLICE! QUICK! JANICE DISAPPEARED! )